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Letting the Chips Fall
Letting The Chips Fall
I think about seeing her
I want it tomorrow
I want it in the next minute
In the next second
To feel the warmth of her smile
Hear her little laugh
And sometimes, I worry
It will never happen
That life will keep us apart
I know that there are certain problems that need to be solved
Problems don’t go away I told her
She avoids them anyway
Until they are about to ruin everything
I hate her for making me feel
There is no hope left
That she accuses me of just stressing her out
Lashes out at me angrily
I feel pain because I know
She loves me
And wants to make me happy
Maybe I was too hard on her
But can I take the pain
Of watching everything burn
Letting the problems stack up against us
She’s so sensitive
And beautiful
And soft and understanding
Perhaps, I can be strong enough
To feel the fear
That I will lose her
I often cope with feelings of fear by trying to solve problems and remove obstacles. It’s who I am. It is the hardest thing to just let something I want more than anything slip away. Maybe I’m too hard on people, on myself for trying to fix everything. Sometimes, you just have to enjoy where life is right now, and process your fear and just trust everything will work itself out.
Workpost 12: Deep Journaling
I was doing some deep journaling in the form of questions and answers, where I would ask all the questions I have, feel deep in my heart what answer is coming to me, and then asking more questions about those answers.
For example, I will ask myself, what do I do about the anxiety with art? The answer that I feel come up intuitively is to create art which then poses the question, what do I do with art? Then I have the answer, use art to create richness in your life.
I was doing this exercise because I realized at this point in my life, I am so confused on what will happen next and what direction I want to go for my coaching, my career, and my relationship that the best way to serve myself is to get some clarity about what I am feeling and what I want. The faster you make decisions, the faster you progress. I felt that having clarity would make it much easier to make faster decisions.
I had quite a few revelations from this exercise I wanted to note down a few of the most important ones:
- I will achieve what I want in the field of AI not by working with others and creating a startup but rather by involving others into my creative process. Remember the energy of anything is possible. Solve difficult problems in practical ways and help people dream again. Change the world for the better.
- The long distance relationship does not meet the physical needs of closeness. I will need to dance more to keep in touch with the physical. I want to use emails and video chats to keep connected with my girlfriend on a spiritual level.
- I’ve lost a bit of my focus with coaching where it has become too much about the client. Coaching is not just about helping people create amazing beautiful art, but also to create a space of my design. Aka a space where connection theory and flow theory rule.
- Use your fear of not having enough money to fuel art that creates more wealth than money can buy (not about the value of the art, but the experience about having stories, music, and paintings so beautiful I may as well be rich).
One more note I wanted to make…I had a new idea with coaching a few days ago. I always wanted to create video clips of my coaching in order to show social media, but I was thinking recently, I can create clips that can be used to share something a package that can be used to motivate my clients (clips of songs created during the session, major breakthroughs etc.)
Workpost 43: Resilience (17 Questions)
My questions:
- How to find a good business partner?
- How to live an entrepreneur/unemployed life?
- How to approach taxes as an entrepreneur?
- How to approach risk?
- How to build a support system?
- How to handle rejection?
- How to approach financial risk in a smart way?
- How to rebuild from nothing?
- How to deal with people looking down on you?
- How to get hired/search for a job?
- How to turn off work?
- How to minimize work effort/stress/inefficiency?
- How to process awkwardness?
- What are different selling methods?
- How to sell in a way that I feel myself?
- How to gain from/work with/ benefit from the American system?
- How can I be more resilient?
My intuitive answers to the questions:
How to find a good business partner?
- Write down what the ideal business is like
- Imagine all your favorite parts
- Imagine all the parts you need help with
- Write down your values
- Think about where a person like this (values + good in the areas you are weak + interest in your business area) would like to do/hangs out
- Ask close friends if they know someone like this
How to live an entrepreneur/unemployed life?
- They are different questions
- For the entrepreneur
- Without a company, you need to build a company around you
- Need to hire help/services to help automate different parts of life
- For the unemployed
- Now is the time to look for help
- Look into government assistance, help from family and friends
- To decide which one you are:
- Unemployed when you no longer have ability to make money
- If you have savings + some cashflow you are an entrepreneur
- If you have no savings and negative cashflow, you are unemployed
- You can be an entrepreneur and still work a job to increase your cashflow
How to approach taxes as an entrepreneur?
- Find a CPA that has experience working with entrepreneurs
How to approach risk?
- Risk is actually really simple
- Risk value = probability of success x value of success
- The higher the risk value, the more worth the risk, compare that with the resources the risk requires
How to build a support system?
- The easiest way are people who want to live in a similar world as you do
- People who’s goals align with yours
- The easiest way to ascertain this is just to ask people
- You can also try to go to places that are included in your vision for what type of world you want to live in
How to handle rejection?
- Repair the ways in which you rejected yourself
How to approach financial risk in a smart way?
- Get good at estimating risk value and investment
- If the risk value is $100,000, and the investment is $90,000 then the risk is likely worth it
- If the risk value is $100,000 and the investment is $10,000 then the risk is definitely worth it
How to rebuild from nothing?
- Know your strengths
- Know what people want
- Sell yourself
How to deal with people looking down on you?
- Repair the ways other people have looked down on your in the past
How to get hired/search for a job?
- Think about the jobs that will be easiest for you to get
- Based on the interviews and discussions, adjust closer to what makes you happy
How to turn off work?
- Create a viable plan for when pending work will be addressed
- Write down the plan and execute when you are ready
How to minimize work effort/stress/inefficiency?
- Focus on creating clarity at all times on what is expected and when
- Set boundaries around respect and time
- Make sure that the goals are specific and small enough to complete one at a time
How to process awkwardness?
- Find reasons why awkwardness is a good thing
What are different selling methods?
- Relationships sales – they like you
- Technical sales – they like the technology
- Pressure sales – they don’t want to say no
- Trust sales – they trust you
How to sell in a way that I feel myself?
- Trust sales + technical sales sounds most like me
How to gain from/work with/ benefit from the American system?
- Sell to the rich
- Hire people who are good at what they do
- Outsource tedious stuff to other countries or AI
How can I be more resilient?
- Spend time getting up when you fall
- Specifically focus time and effort on healing from painful experiences
Profit In Peace 18: Tired
4 AM Again
It is 4 am again
But this time
I feel strange when I wake up
I feel happy when I read her messages
Then guilty
I am so tired
Her emotions are so attractive
My little sloth
Then I remind myself of the feeling
Of being trapped
Unable to leave
Into a life
Alone
Unhappy
Unheard
Anxious
I wonder if it’s her
Or me
That I feel so cold
Alone
I’m trying to understand the right thing to do
But as I write these words
I realize
That the right thing is to sit here
In my depression
Waiting patiently for the answers
To come to me
I Feel Sad
Because I love her
Her emotions like the ocean
I know her
Her little sloth fingers
And I still feel
It is over
I Can Be Brave
I feel overwhelmed
So many emotions
So tired
So much stuff to do
So little time
I tried to keep them down for now
But I realized
I don’t need to
I can work and cry
At the same time
Workpost 25: Tired and Weak
Tired
I feel so tired
And weak
I just want to sleep
But the worries gnaw at me until I am awake
I look for comfort
Anywhere I can find it
I’m just feeling exhausted and I wonder what it takes to get well rested again. Maybe I can try to take a nap. Right now my physical health is the most important things to me. My eyes ache. My back aches. My sinuses ache.
The main issues that I’m working through is trying to understand what I am selling for coaching and also what I am selling for AI. For coaching I figured out the high price which is 25,000 for helping someone make their dream (creative) project a reality, whether it is a book, video, painting, etc.
I’ve been told multiple times to look for things that might be more affordable, but I actually thought about it a lot and I don’t think I can think of anything like that.
I just want to work on coaching a few clients who want to do something really special, beautiful, and profound.
Turning my attention to AI, I want to do something similar. Make the impossible possible. Provide 10x value, charge high prices.
Core Beliefs 3
Today I was talking to someone who thought that reprogramming your core beliefs and I’ve given this some thought.
- It can be cringe if it isn’t genuine (forcing yourself to believe something that isn’t true)
- It isn’t actually meant to be mindless affirmations but rather trying to get your mind to see a more balanced version of the truth.
- Ex: We are bad and our emotions do push other people away sometimes. But it’s not all the time. When you have a core wound, it’s something you are deeply afraid of and look for evidence for instead of looking at things clearly.
- For example, if you believe you aren’t attractive, if ten people say you look good, and one person says you are ugly, you will believe the ten people are lying and the one person is telling the truth without being rational or logical about it. It doesn’t mean you aren’t ugly to some people, it just means it’s not as simple as you think it is.
- If you successfully reprogram, you will take negative things less personally.
- Reprogramming your subconscious means countering your habits of looking for evidence for the opposite of what you believe so you can see the fuller picture.
- It can also be cringe if it is very surface level (mindlessness listing out five things)
- Perhaps I want to take a more artistic approach and revisit different memories that contrasts against my core beliefs that takes me back to the feelings
Today I’ll do a little poem.
Zubats
It was nighttime in the art studios
Brandon’s smiling face
Shiny in the lights from above
He told me that the zubats were talking
And that he asked
Jack or Michael
Jack of course
He told me that they said
Even though
They thought
I was a bit too arrogant
Letting the Chips Fall
Letting The Chips Fall
I think about seeing her
I want it tomorrow
I want it in the next minute
In the next second
To feel the warmth of her smile
Hear her little laugh
And sometimes, I worry
It will never happen
That life will keep us apart
I know that there are certain problems that need to be solved
Problems don’t go away I told her
She avoids them anyway
Until they are about to ruin everything
I hate her for making me feel
There is no hope left
That she accuses me of just stressing her out
Lashes out at me angrily
I feel pain because I know
She loves me
And wants to make me happy
Maybe I was too hard on her
But can I take the pain
Of watching everything burn
Letting the problems stack up against us
She’s so sensitive
And beautiful
And soft and understanding
Perhaps, I can be strong enough
To feel the fear
That I will lose her
I often cope with feelings of fear by trying to solve problems and remove obstacles. It’s who I am. It is the hardest thing to just let something I want more than anything slip away. Maybe I’m too hard on people, on myself for trying to fix everything. Sometimes, you just have to enjoy where life is right now, and process your fear and just trust everything will work itself out.
Workpost 12: Deep Journaling
I was doing some deep journaling in the form of questions and answers, where I would ask all the questions I have, feel deep in my heart what answer is coming to me, and then asking more questions about those answers.
For example, I will ask myself, what do I do about the anxiety with art? The answer that I feel come up intuitively is to create art which then poses the question, what do I do with art? Then I have the answer, use art to create richness in your life.
I was doing this exercise because I realized at this point in my life, I am so confused on what will happen next and what direction I want to go for my coaching, my career, and my relationship that the best way to serve myself is to get some clarity about what I am feeling and what I want. The faster you make decisions, the faster you progress. I felt that having clarity would make it much easier to make faster decisions.
I had quite a few revelations from this exercise I wanted to note down a few of the most important ones:
- I will achieve what I want in the field of AI not by working with others and creating a startup but rather by involving others into my creative process. Remember the energy of anything is possible. Solve difficult problems in practical ways and help people dream again. Change the world for the better.
- The long distance relationship does not meet the physical needs of closeness. I will need to dance more to keep in touch with the physical. I want to use emails and video chats to keep connected with my girlfriend on a spiritual level.
- I’ve lost a bit of my focus with coaching where it has become too much about the client. Coaching is not just about helping people create amazing beautiful art, but also to create a space of my design. Aka a space where connection theory and flow theory rule.
- Use your fear of not having enough money to fuel art that creates more wealth than money can buy (not about the value of the art, but the experience about having stories, music, and paintings so beautiful I may as well be rich).
One more note I wanted to make…I had a new idea with coaching a few days ago. I always wanted to create video clips of my coaching in order to show social media, but I was thinking recently, I can create clips that can be used to share something a package that can be used to motivate my clients (clips of songs created during the session, major breakthroughs etc.)
Workpost 43: Resilience (17 Questions)
My questions:
- How to find a good business partner?
- How to live an entrepreneur/unemployed life?
- How to approach taxes as an entrepreneur?
- How to approach risk?
- How to build a support system?
- How to handle rejection?
- How to approach financial risk in a smart way?
- How to rebuild from nothing?
- How to deal with people looking down on you?
- How to get hired/search for a job?
- How to turn off work?
- How to minimize work effort/stress/inefficiency?
- How to process awkwardness?
- What are different selling methods?
- How to sell in a way that I feel myself?
- How to gain from/work with/ benefit from the American system?
- How can I be more resilient?
My intuitive answers to the questions:
How to find a good business partner?
- Write down what the ideal business is like
- Imagine all your favorite parts
- Imagine all the parts you need help with
- Write down your values
- Think about where a person like this (values + good in the areas you are weak + interest in your business area) would like to do/hangs out
- Ask close friends if they know someone like this
How to live an entrepreneur/unemployed life?
- They are different questions
- For the entrepreneur
- Without a company, you need to build a company around you
- Need to hire help/services to help automate different parts of life
- For the unemployed
- Now is the time to look for help
- Look into government assistance, help from family and friends
- To decide which one you are:
- Unemployed when you no longer have ability to make money
- If you have savings + some cashflow you are an entrepreneur
- If you have no savings and negative cashflow, you are unemployed
- You can be an entrepreneur and still work a job to increase your cashflow
How to approach taxes as an entrepreneur?
- Find a CPA that has experience working with entrepreneurs
How to approach risk?
- Risk is actually really simple
- Risk value = probability of success x value of success
- The higher the risk value, the more worth the risk, compare that with the resources the risk requires
How to build a support system?
- The easiest way are people who want to live in a similar world as you do
- People who’s goals align with yours
- The easiest way to ascertain this is just to ask people
- You can also try to go to places that are included in your vision for what type of world you want to live in
How to handle rejection?
- Repair the ways in which you rejected yourself
How to approach financial risk in a smart way?
- Get good at estimating risk value and investment
- If the risk value is $100,000, and the investment is $90,000 then the risk is likely worth it
- If the risk value is $100,000 and the investment is $10,000 then the risk is definitely worth it
How to rebuild from nothing?
- Know your strengths
- Know what people want
- Sell yourself
How to deal with people looking down on you?
- Repair the ways other people have looked down on your in the past
How to get hired/search for a job?
- Think about the jobs that will be easiest for you to get
- Based on the interviews and discussions, adjust closer to what makes you happy
How to turn off work?
- Create a viable plan for when pending work will be addressed
- Write down the plan and execute when you are ready
How to minimize work effort/stress/inefficiency?
- Focus on creating clarity at all times on what is expected and when
- Set boundaries around respect and time
- Make sure that the goals are specific and small enough to complete one at a time
How to process awkwardness?
- Find reasons why awkwardness is a good thing
What are different selling methods?
- Relationships sales – they like you
- Technical sales – they like the technology
- Pressure sales – they don’t want to say no
- Trust sales – they trust you
How to sell in a way that I feel myself?
- Trust sales + technical sales sounds most like me
How to gain from/work with/ benefit from the American system?
- Sell to the rich
- Hire people who are good at what they do
- Outsource tedious stuff to other countries or AI
How can I be more resilient?
- Spend time getting up when you fall
- Specifically focus time and effort on healing from painful experiences
Profit In Peace 18: Tired
4 AM Again
It is 4 am again
But this time
I feel strange when I wake up
I feel happy when I read her messages
Then guilty
I am so tired
Her emotions are so attractive
My little sloth
Then I remind myself of the feeling
Of being trapped
Unable to leave
Into a life
Alone
Unhappy
Unheard
Anxious
I wonder if it’s her
Or me
That I feel so cold
Alone
I’m trying to understand the right thing to do
But as I write these words
I realize
That the right thing is to sit here
In my depression
Waiting patiently for the answers
To come to me
I Feel Sad
Because I love her
Her emotions like the ocean
I know her
Her little sloth fingers
And I still feel
It is over
I Can Be Brave
I feel overwhelmed
So many emotions
So tired
So much stuff to do
So little time
I tried to keep them down for now
But I realized
I don’t need to
I can work and cry
At the same time
Workpost 25: Tired and Weak
Tired
I feel so tired
And weak
I just want to sleep
But the worries gnaw at me until I am awake
I look for comfort
Anywhere I can find it
I’m just feeling exhausted and I wonder what it takes to get well rested again. Maybe I can try to take a nap. Right now my physical health is the most important things to me. My eyes ache. My back aches. My sinuses ache.
The main issues that I’m working through is trying to understand what I am selling for coaching and also what I am selling for AI. For coaching I figured out the high price which is 25,000 for helping someone make their dream (creative) project a reality, whether it is a book, video, painting, etc.
I’ve been told multiple times to look for things that might be more affordable, but I actually thought about it a lot and I don’t think I can think of anything like that.
I just want to work on coaching a few clients who want to do something really special, beautiful, and profound.
Turning my attention to AI, I want to do something similar. Make the impossible possible. Provide 10x value, charge high prices.
Core Beliefs 3
Today I was talking to someone who thought that reprogramming your core beliefs and I’ve given this some thought.
- It can be cringe if it isn’t genuine (forcing yourself to believe something that isn’t true)
- It isn’t actually meant to be mindless affirmations but rather trying to get your mind to see a more balanced version of the truth.
- Ex: We are bad and our emotions do push other people away sometimes. But it’s not all the time. When you have a core wound, it’s something you are deeply afraid of and look for evidence for instead of looking at things clearly.
- For example, if you believe you aren’t attractive, if ten people say you look good, and one person says you are ugly, you will believe the ten people are lying and the one person is telling the truth without being rational or logical about it. It doesn’t mean you aren’t ugly to some people, it just means it’s not as simple as you think it is.
- If you successfully reprogram, you will take negative things less personally.
- Reprogramming your subconscious means countering your habits of looking for evidence for the opposite of what you believe so you can see the fuller picture.
- It can also be cringe if it is very surface level (mindlessness listing out five things)
- Perhaps I want to take a more artistic approach and revisit different memories that contrasts against my core beliefs that takes me back to the feelings
Today I’ll do a little poem.
Zubats
It was nighttime in the art studios
Brandon’s smiling face
Shiny in the lights from above
He told me that the zubats were talking
And that he asked
Jack or Michael
Jack of course
He told me that they said
Even though
They thought
I was a bit too arrogant
Letting the Chips Fall
Letting The Chips Fall
I think about seeing her
I want it tomorrow
I want it in the next minute
In the next second
To feel the warmth of her smile
Hear her little laugh
And sometimes, I worry
It will never happen
That life will keep us apart
I know that there are certain problems that need to be solved
Problems don’t go away I told her
She avoids them anyway
Until they are about to ruin everything
I hate her for making me feel
There is no hope left
That she accuses me of just stressing her out
Lashes out at me angrily
I feel pain because I know
She loves me
And wants to make me happy
Maybe I was too hard on her
But can I take the pain
Of watching everything burn
Letting the problems stack up against us
She’s so sensitive
And beautiful
And soft and understanding
Perhaps, I can be strong enough
To feel the fear
That I will lose her
I often cope with feelings of fear by trying to solve problems and remove obstacles. It’s who I am. It is the hardest thing to just let something I want more than anything slip away. Maybe I’m too hard on people, on myself for trying to fix everything. Sometimes, you just have to enjoy where life is right now, and process your fear and just trust everything will work itself out.
Workpost 12: Deep Journaling
I was doing some deep journaling in the form of questions and answers, where I would ask all the questions I have, feel deep in my heart what answer is coming to me, and then asking more questions about those answers.
For example, I will ask myself, what do I do about the anxiety with art? The answer that I feel come up intuitively is to create art which then poses the question, what do I do with art? Then I have the answer, use art to create richness in your life.
I was doing this exercise because I realized at this point in my life, I am so confused on what will happen next and what direction I want to go for my coaching, my career, and my relationship that the best way to serve myself is to get some clarity about what I am feeling and what I want. The faster you make decisions, the faster you progress. I felt that having clarity would make it much easier to make faster decisions.
I had quite a few revelations from this exercise I wanted to note down a few of the most important ones:
- I will achieve what I want in the field of AI not by working with others and creating a startup but rather by involving others into my creative process. Remember the energy of anything is possible. Solve difficult problems in practical ways and help people dream again. Change the world for the better.
- The long distance relationship does not meet the physical needs of closeness. I will need to dance more to keep in touch with the physical. I want to use emails and video chats to keep connected with my girlfriend on a spiritual level.
- I’ve lost a bit of my focus with coaching where it has become too much about the client. Coaching is not just about helping people create amazing beautiful art, but also to create a space of my design. Aka a space where connection theory and flow theory rule.
- Use your fear of not having enough money to fuel art that creates more wealth than money can buy (not about the value of the art, but the experience about having stories, music, and paintings so beautiful I may as well be rich).
One more note I wanted to make…I had a new idea with coaching a few days ago. I always wanted to create video clips of my coaching in order to show social media, but I was thinking recently, I can create clips that can be used to share something a package that can be used to motivate my clients (clips of songs created during the session, major breakthroughs etc.)
Workpost 43: Resilience (17 Questions)
My questions:
- How to find a good business partner?
- How to live an entrepreneur/unemployed life?
- How to approach taxes as an entrepreneur?
- How to approach risk?
- How to build a support system?
- How to handle rejection?
- How to approach financial risk in a smart way?
- How to rebuild from nothing?
- How to deal with people looking down on you?
- How to get hired/search for a job?
- How to turn off work?
- How to minimize work effort/stress/inefficiency?
- How to process awkwardness?
- What are different selling methods?
- How to sell in a way that I feel myself?
- How to gain from/work with/ benefit from the American system?
- How can I be more resilient?
My intuitive answers to the questions:
How to find a good business partner?
- Write down what the ideal business is like
- Imagine all your favorite parts
- Imagine all the parts you need help with
- Write down your values
- Think about where a person like this (values + good in the areas you are weak + interest in your business area) would like to do/hangs out
- Ask close friends if they know someone like this
How to live an entrepreneur/unemployed life?
- They are different questions
- For the entrepreneur
- Without a company, you need to build a company around you
- Need to hire help/services to help automate different parts of life
- For the unemployed
- Now is the time to look for help
- Look into government assistance, help from family and friends
- To decide which one you are:
- Unemployed when you no longer have ability to make money
- If you have savings + some cashflow you are an entrepreneur
- If you have no savings and negative cashflow, you are unemployed
- You can be an entrepreneur and still work a job to increase your cashflow
How to approach taxes as an entrepreneur?
- Find a CPA that has experience working with entrepreneurs
How to approach risk?
- Risk is actually really simple
- Risk value = probability of success x value of success
- The higher the risk value, the more worth the risk, compare that with the resources the risk requires
How to build a support system?
- The easiest way are people who want to live in a similar world as you do
- People who’s goals align with yours
- The easiest way to ascertain this is just to ask people
- You can also try to go to places that are included in your vision for what type of world you want to live in
How to handle rejection?
- Repair the ways in which you rejected yourself
How to approach financial risk in a smart way?
- Get good at estimating risk value and investment
- If the risk value is $100,000, and the investment is $90,000 then the risk is likely worth it
- If the risk value is $100,000 and the investment is $10,000 then the risk is definitely worth it
How to rebuild from nothing?
- Know your strengths
- Know what people want
- Sell yourself
How to deal with people looking down on you?
- Repair the ways other people have looked down on your in the past
How to get hired/search for a job?
- Think about the jobs that will be easiest for you to get
- Based on the interviews and discussions, adjust closer to what makes you happy
How to turn off work?
- Create a viable plan for when pending work will be addressed
- Write down the plan and execute when you are ready
How to minimize work effort/stress/inefficiency?
- Focus on creating clarity at all times on what is expected and when
- Set boundaries around respect and time
- Make sure that the goals are specific and small enough to complete one at a time
How to process awkwardness?
- Find reasons why awkwardness is a good thing
What are different selling methods?
- Relationships sales – they like you
- Technical sales – they like the technology
- Pressure sales – they don’t want to say no
- Trust sales – they trust you
How to sell in a way that I feel myself?
- Trust sales + technical sales sounds most like me
How to gain from/work with/ benefit from the American system?
- Sell to the rich
- Hire people who are good at what they do
- Outsource tedious stuff to other countries or AI
How can I be more resilient?
- Spend time getting up when you fall
- Specifically focus time and effort on healing from painful experiences
Profit In Peace 18: Tired
4 AM Again
It is 4 am again
But this time
I feel strange when I wake up
I feel happy when I read her messages
Then guilty
I am so tired
Her emotions are so attractive
My little sloth
Then I remind myself of the feeling
Of being trapped
Unable to leave
Into a life
Alone
Unhappy
Unheard
Anxious
I wonder if it’s her
Or me
That I feel so cold
Alone
I’m trying to understand the right thing to do
But as I write these words
I realize
That the right thing is to sit here
In my depression
Waiting patiently for the answers
To come to me
I Feel Sad
Because I love her
Her emotions like the ocean
I know her
Her little sloth fingers
And I still feel
It is over
I Can Be Brave
I feel overwhelmed
So many emotions
So tired
So much stuff to do
So little time
I tried to keep them down for now
But I realized
I don’t need to
I can work and cry
At the same time
Workpost 25: Tired and Weak
Tired
I feel so tired
And weak
I just want to sleep
But the worries gnaw at me until I am awake
I look for comfort
Anywhere I can find it
I’m just feeling exhausted and I wonder what it takes to get well rested again. Maybe I can try to take a nap. Right now my physical health is the most important things to me. My eyes ache. My back aches. My sinuses ache.
The main issues that I’m working through is trying to understand what I am selling for coaching and also what I am selling for AI. For coaching I figured out the high price which is 25,000 for helping someone make their dream (creative) project a reality, whether it is a book, video, painting, etc.
I’ve been told multiple times to look for things that might be more affordable, but I actually thought about it a lot and I don’t think I can think of anything like that.
I just want to work on coaching a few clients who want to do something really special, beautiful, and profound.
Turning my attention to AI, I want to do something similar. Make the impossible possible. Provide 10x value, charge high prices.
Core Beliefs 3
Today I was talking to someone who thought that reprogramming your core beliefs and I’ve given this some thought.
- It can be cringe if it isn’t genuine (forcing yourself to believe something that isn’t true)
- It isn’t actually meant to be mindless affirmations but rather trying to get your mind to see a more balanced version of the truth.
- Ex: We are bad and our emotions do push other people away sometimes. But it’s not all the time. When you have a core wound, it’s something you are deeply afraid of and look for evidence for instead of looking at things clearly.
- For example, if you believe you aren’t attractive, if ten people say you look good, and one person says you are ugly, you will believe the ten people are lying and the one person is telling the truth without being rational or logical about it. It doesn’t mean you aren’t ugly to some people, it just means it’s not as simple as you think it is.
- If you successfully reprogram, you will take negative things less personally.
- Reprogramming your subconscious means countering your habits of looking for evidence for the opposite of what you believe so you can see the fuller picture.
- It can also be cringe if it is very surface level (mindlessness listing out five things)
- Perhaps I want to take a more artistic approach and revisit different memories that contrasts against my core beliefs that takes me back to the feelings
Today I’ll do a little poem.
Zubats
It was nighttime in the art studios
Brandon’s smiling face
Shiny in the lights from above
He told me that the zubats were talking
And that he asked
Jack or Michael
Jack of course
He told me that they said
Even though
They thought
I was a bit too arrogant