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Coaching Session 11/18 VOD Review Part 1

Byjack

This is my reflections of the first part of the coaching session, the first 20 minutes.

  • Everything up to the 10 minute mark seems really slow, should I keep that or not?
  • Would my client feel comfortable posting things about him and a love interest?
  • There is a sort of peace in how slow it goes but also can be antsy for the wrong person.
  • Maybe I should think in the frame of “what if people understood”? Seems like a really cool mentality given that I have a great deal of material.
  • I wonder if I come off try hard.
  • Is it bad to edit a lot and cut a lot? What if I mess up the progression? Or be less honest?
  • I love produced cuts, but are they artificial?
  • Born to be this high (instrumental) sounds really nice in the background. I dunno if I am changing the experience. But I suppose that is a good thing.
  • Really starts to pick up energy at the 20 minute mark

Resetting in the coaching mindset, here is my reflection on the reflections:

  • We ain’t cutting shit, use the slowness as a texture
  • Yea we talking about love if he’s down
  • Let’s use the energy in the antsyness and also find ways to energetically cut
  • If people understood, we can speak to them more clearly though clips (thinking about cutting clips into episodes and using snippets to be the intro of every episode)
  • Use the tension of trying hard cut it out when it is distracting
  • I want to preserve the order, but cut as much as I want to, especially cut more creatively
  • There is nothing wrong with produced cuts but they take away from this coaching call in this scenario because there is so much there. Use the produced cuts to make shorts.
  • Can use sound in the beginning and the end, keep the audio clean
  • Nicee

Livestreaming

Byjack

So I recently had my first Livestream ever on Youtube.

It was a lot of fun, and I created a really cool story excerpt and a painting, but I didn’t feel like I was in the moment enough and had enough of a connection to the audience. I felt like I was watching myself and out of my own body

Talking to multiple people, I’ve come up with some ideas:

  • Invite people to do something in their life that centers on presence that they have been putting off
    • Yoga, working out, drawing, painting, stretching, cleaning
  • Create a wheel of ridiculous things
    • Ask lots of questions and when I get little or no engagement, spin a wheel of ridiculous things
  • Create a discussion with people
  • Minimize the windows so I don’t see myself most of the time
  • Play recordings while I’m doing something
  • Create some sort of prize

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Tai Chi Class

Byjack

Tai chi class was very interesting. I had a thought when the instructor was answering a question by one of the students. They were asking whether or not the movement called the “whip” was supposed to have a whipping motion. The instructor told him that as a beginner you always want to go slow. She also said that she teaches with words.

I was thinking that I can apply this Tai Chi mentality to some of the things that I work really hard to do such as work or Valorant or content creation.

Some thoughts I want to try out:

  1. Do things really slow and relaxed. Speed up if its easier, but as soon as it gets hard, go slower and more relaxed.
  2. Focus on the kinks, uncomfortable parts and keep working them out (my thoughts, not usually used in tai chi)
  3. Speed up when it feels really easy
  4. Speak aloud what you are doing, in order to be more intentional
  5. Follow a predetermined routine

What I want to try for my LinkedIn 50 days of posts:

  1. Write down what I know
  2. Write down what I don’t know
  3. Do necessary research
  4. Copy photoshop template
  5. Flesh out first iteration
  6. Flesh out images
  7. More research and reflection
  8. Refinement

I Made Myself A Deal

Byjack

When I left, I made myself a deal. If it was meant to be, she would reach out and try to make it work. If it wasn’t, I would at least set both of us free to pursue our lives.

If it wasn’t meant to be I wonder why. I told her she could be forever for me. When I had her, I felt like I wasn’t alone anymore. But now I feel more alone than ever. I wonder if she can even love a man with her trauma. I wonder if she’s more immature than I thought. I wonder if I wasn’t able to give her what she needed. She wasn’t after all, able to give me what I needed.

All I can do is sit and try to feel the feelings of heartbreak, anger, shame, and fear. And enjoy creating art from it.

Today created a video to myself.

Sometimes we don’t always win. Sometimes we have to be ok with losing. Sometimes we have to be ok with not being good enough.

Letting The Empress Take The Wheel

Byjack

My sister and I have this joke about the empress. According to a tarrot reading, my sister needs to rely more on her “inner empress”. What does this mean? Well apparently the emperor card stands for searching out and controlling the world, while the empress waits for the world to come to her.

This actually is in line with a thought process I had myself about being yourself.

Feeling free to be yourself = happiness. Feeling like you cannot be yourself is the root of ALL unhappiness. But how to be yourself is another very difficult story.

One way is a method I like to call, “Letting the empress take the wheel”.