Workpost 60: Anger

Byjack

I feel a lot of frustration and anger about not seeing any results with my ads.

I feel anger because:

  • I worked so hard and intelligently compared to so many people, yet I didn’t really get any sort of results, not even site clicks
  • I don’t understand why this is happening. I get it if people come to the website and don’t convert. I don’t get it that no one even goes to the website?
  • I feel extremely angry that my client will take it as further evidence that they are correct (“you just need to be viral” “its not words and images that will get you there” “no one cares about your values” “people wont buy even if its free”)

I think the reasons why it’s failing is because the offer or the video is not good in some way. There must be something wrong with it.

Maybe its possible that the audience settings are not perfect either.

The reality is that my client has no idea what is going on and just wants us to succeed.

He knows that I’ve been working super hard at this project and I’m sure he appreciates it.

He has certain biases that he wants to enact, but those will have to wait until after my period.

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Workpost 30: Refocus

Byjack

My mind feels wild

Like a disordered pair of weeds

Blowing in the wind

They seek home

Somewhere to rest their aching knots

And yet

I cannot find any purchase

The loose threads of my mind struggle

To connect into anything cohesive

Today I was feeling confused about a question:

Why do I no longer feel any motivation to do coaching? Is it because I’m scared to propose a $20,000 product? Am I scared to start a community?

And so I went for a walk. On my walk, I determined that it was because I desire to focus more than anything. Currently, I am focusing on posting for 50 days on LinkedIn and it’s taking a lot of energy. I need to be able to have fewer things on my plate.

However, when I sat down to write this journal. I realized that I’ve lost my way in these posts. I no longer do the hard work to grow and articulate how I am feeling. When I did, my poem revealed to me that I feel extremely lost and scattered in my mind. I’ve forgotten the helpful intentions I use to set myself into the mode of preparing my day:

  1. You are in my house
  2. Take your time, be patient
  3. Be ok with silence
  4. Take risks
  5. My house is a place where anything is possible
  6. Connection theory + flow theory

When I immerse myself in these intentions, I feel the distinct taste of possibility coming back to me and my world is opened wide enough to do the planning that I want to do in these posts.

Today I want to continue the work of yesterday and I want to focus on three things:

  1. AI project
  2. Linkedin post process
  3. To do list

AI Consulting Days 34-35/63

Byjack

I need to do some brainstorming about my new niche.

I do think that banking is not a niche I want to start in because it is harder to take someone who is making a lot of money and make them purposeful than it is to take someone who is purposeful and help them make money. At least for me. At least while I don’t have a proven track record yet.

If I focus on the non-profit arena, the goal is to understand current what the state is with non-profits. I don’t know how to answer that question except by talking to people working there.

I may have some people who can help in that arena but I don’t know if reaching out to them will take some time, and even if they do, what is the answer? I just don’t know if they can speak to the whole industry.

Here are my thoughts:

  1. Use AI to brainstorm
  2. Look for people in my network to talk to

Ideas from AI:

  1. Look at these studies
  2. Look at nonprofit conferences
    • Review recent non-profit technology conference agendas for AI-related sessions
    • Look at speaker profiles and presentation topics
  3. Look for grantmaking foundations focusing on AI for social good. This indicates a growing interest in AI within the nonprofit sector.
  4. Social Media Listening: Use AI-powered social listening tools to analyze conversations around AI in the nonprofit sector.

I am also thinking about the 10k for for-profit companies and wondering if non-profits have something similar in the forms they must make publicly available in the 990 and 1023.

Here are the non-profits I want to look at:

  • Arbor Day Foundation
  • Cousteau Society
  • Natural Resources Defense Council
  • Unitarian Universalist Service Committee (UUSC)
  • Environmental Defense Fund
  • Jane Goodall Institute
  • Advice for Life by Your True Nature
  • National Audubon Society

Looking into job postings:

Non-profit conferences:

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Workplace 20: Basics

Byjack

I’ve been feeling quite down and unhappy recently.

I’ve decided after some meditation, journaling, and deep breathing that I want to focus back on the basics.

Here are the basics I already covered:

  1. Morning blog post and walk
  2. Nighttime journaling (most nights)
  3. 11-12 PM bedtime

Basics I want to further incorporate:

  1. Music and dance in the morning
  2. Deep breathing when I feel drawn to distract myself (indicates pain)
  3. Focus on creating delicious meals, taking time to enjoy eating and cooking

I’ve been processing the rejections in my previous post and I wanted to write a poem:

She Stared at Me

I remember the times when they just stared at me

As if they were surprised that I would even dare to ask

The girl in art history class

In the library

On the bus

That stare

Then that feeling I was reaching

For empty air

Something that didn’t exist

The feeling of people watching

Seeing me fail

Yet now I think about it

I was quite brave

I am a brave person

Willing to take the risk

I often didn’t believe in what I was doing

When I was trying to pick up girls

But now

With my career dreams

I do

Isn’t that worth a few stares?

Don’t I get the opportunity to shock

People out of their square lives

Square thoughts

Into my world?

Workpost 78: Tired

Byjack

Today I’m tired and might be mildly sick. But I’m going to make the most out of it.

Today I would love to create a new landing page concept. It could level up our business by a lot.

For fun, I would like to play Valorant again. It was super fun last night.

I would also like to do some drawing while relaxing outside. That would be really nice.

Finally, I want to do some jiujitsu and maybe take a nap.

It would be nice to make some good money today as well.

Workpost 45: Showing Up

Byjack

Today I feel very exhausted and tired. I still feel struggles with going to jiujitsu and going to bed on time. I feel overwhelmed with where I’m going with my business.

Here are some of the things I learned over the past few days:

  1. I can combine the powerful techniques of connection theory and flow theory in the following way: first use connection theory to validate and understand my feelings, then use flow theory to somatically process it. I can then use connection theory to understand deeper, better and have a more grounded explanation.
  2. It isn’t about what you do, it is about how you show up
  3. It’s ok to not know where you are going, but aim your northstar and measure everything at it

Today here are the things I want to achomplish:

  • Complete the three tasks I created for myself
  • Have additional time to play Valorant before jiujitsu
  • Spend time after jiujitsu working on my businesses
  • Take a nap during the day to recover from tireness

Workpost 46: A Black Dragon Called Neelu

Byjack

Today I came up with a new emotional processing tool, finding a way to personify the feelings within me and making friends with them.

The goal is to accept and validate feelings within instead of trying to push them down or quickly process them.

Here are some examples:

  1. Valorant stress and anxiety (fear of being bad/defective, fear of failure) – a little black dragon called Neelu. The tension in my stomach and heart are the dragon’s body my frustration its fire.
  2. The feeling of being overwhelmed by the thought of work – Pedro the Triangle, a pyramid floating in my chest with sharp edges
  3. The desire/pull for attention or to be liked – Lethe the a sort of fast moving air or energy in my chest

These personification, I make friends with them, allow them to be with me while I go about my business.

I also wanted to talk about a really good video I watched.

Some lessons I learned:

  1. Stay consistent
  2. Figure out what you want to be the best at (good enough for others to want to pay you money)
  3. Figure out what comes before the money in terms that is more grounded and more closer to your purpose

Taking the final advice, I wanted to think about it a little more.

I want to make $200,000.

My two goals are:

  1. To help people turn their artistic gifts into masterpieces
    • Works of art that are honest, emotional, grounded, playful, imaginative, personal, and beautiful
  2. To make companies 10x more valuable
    • More purposeful, unique, efficient, intentional, innovative processes, brands, culture, products and leaders (consistent and aligned)

The question I want to ask myself is: how would I need to go about my goals in such a way that it would be strange if I didn’t make $200,000?