AI Consulting + Art Coaching Days 52/63

It’s 1 am in the morning and I feel tired.

When I think about drawing on my drawing tablet I feel overwhelmed high in my chest.

I feel really really scared that everything I do will be frustrating and not good or artistic.

Let me start with some inktober sketches.

What strikes me when I draw is that art for me, even just plain linework, is all about discovery, all about uncovering the truth or the world underneath the scribbles. It doesn’t matter if I don’t see the world at first, it emerges from within the shapes.

I mean this style is definitely me, I guess I worry that if I try to refine it, it will lose the liveliness in here. At the same time, I’m not sure I want the business card to be this messy and a part of my wants it to look more like a tarrot card. I imagined a swashbuckling kid with big aviator goggles and a bunch of dripping paint brushes.

I have so many things I sorta want to work on but I feel scattered. Part of the problem is that these new glasses are making me dizzy and I don’t really like them very much.

Here are some of my options:

• Figure out how to talk to retirement homes about art coaching
• Create art coaching website
• Write about social anxiety and process
• Process feelings of being a failure
• Improve vision
• Get better at video editing
• Work on my art
• Work on my music
• Improve my bloating
• Work on my sleep
• Work on my digestion
• Work on skool games

I feel lost and I just gravitate towards anything that has some level of an answer for me.

I feel that maybe there one answer to a lot of things. I strongly believe my bloating is due to stress. And while there are many ways to work on stress, I feel breathing might be one of the most powerful ways to manage stress.

If I focus on breathing, I can also focus on singing as it involves breathwork. I also believe it will make a big difference in my digestion and maybe even social anxiety.

So what if I focus on breathing for stress, bloating, anxiety, and singing. What if I make a video about it, hitting another area as well. What video format do I want to follow?

I think I’ll keep it simple, and follow Beau Miles, one of my favorites.

I’ve finally gotten my business cards done! I’m pretty happy about that.

The main thing to do next is to make some money today.

I was to focus primarily on making fast money, at least 300 today.

Other than that, I want to think about my next step in my plan – which is making videos.

Finally, I think my final potential goal for today is to call some active retired individual retreats and see if I can teach a class there.

I’m feeling a lot of pressure for not making a huge amount of progress in finishing my funnels and progress in my businesses as a whole. I feel that I need to get much more productive in general and I’m not getting there currently in the working environments I’m in. I perhaps need to spend more time out of the apartment working out and in working spaces that help me focus.

I made a change today by going to one of those working spaces.

Let me process the emotions, then look at the dates strategically.

My tailbone and my neck are in tension and sore, probably from running a 5k yesterday.

I feel my heart is gripped in a vice when I think of the time running out.

I feel scared. I feel a bit of the trapped feeling as well.

I almost feel this hollowness in my heart. Almost the same feeling as feeling unloved and misunderstood.

I’m remembering what I felt last night:

• I need to focus on the end goal (for my art coaching its helping people who want to pursue this beautiful masterpiece and feel so alone on this journey)
• Those people need me, there is some urgency to get it done immediately
• I want to inspire my own artistic journey
• I just need to create and let the art be what it wants to be

I also saw this amazing video:

It makes me want to do YouTube again, but I feel overwhelmed.

Now that I think of it, it may be a better fit for my AI consulting business. That is a space that is likely very hot, gets a lot of clicks and views and I don’t have a clear idea or mission on what I want to do.

Now let’s look at timelines:

Art Coaching

Start: 7/12 | End: 9/12 | 63 days total

What needs to be done for the funnel:

Payment/banking systems
How much to pay myself vs save for taxes vs reinvest into business
Website
Business cards
Calendly
Client contracts
Mailing lists/CRM

AI Consulting

Start: 7/12 | End: 9/12 | 63 days total

What needs to be done for the funnel:

1. Payment/banking systems
2. How much to pay myself vs save for taxes vs reinvest into business
3. Website
4. Business cards
5. Calendly
6. Client contracts
7. Mailing lists/CRM
8. Branding
9. New contract for funnel

So we are day 26/63 meaning we are 41% through the period, we have 37 days left