I’ve decided to start on my health challenge today. What does that mean?

1. An emphasis on taking care of my mental and physical health above all
2. Creating boundaries and emotionally processing any pushback around not making my health a priority
3. Certain goals:
   • Jiujitsu for 2+ hours every day
   • Boxing on the days I can go
   • Cooking all of my meals
   • Bedtime at midnight
   • Reduced or elimination of all processed sugars
4. Work comes after health, and is designed to be rejuvenating instead of draining

This health challenge will run from today until the 15th – the day when I travel home. Then I will work on adjusting and finding a new routine.

Today, I want to ponder two things:

1. What do I want to post as a video explaining what I’m doing with my youtube challenge?
2. How will I support myself healthwise while working to make it rejuvenating?

Youtube Video

1. “It’s over. I failed”
2. “Welcome back to the 21 day youtuber challenge, my name is Jack you are watching episode 17.”
3. “In this challenge, I was supposed to post a video every day for 21 days, and it’s safe to say I failed.”
4. “I haven’t posted for multiple days in a row, the last episode actually shot multiple days before I released it because it took so long to edit”
5. “The reason is simple, it took 6 to 8 hours to create every video from the ideation, to the shooting, to the editing and that just isn’t sustainable”
6. “If I think of the ideal pyramid of life, it looks something like this” (Health, work, youtube)
7. “But recently it’s felt upside down”
8. “So what’s next? I still want to do the challenge – posting the rest of the 21 videos exploring what I like to make videos about. After all, I have so many more ideas to try out”
9. “But I’m not going to release them every day anymore”
10. “Here are 10 things I can focus on now that I’m not releasing videos at such a frantic pace”
11. “But in those little moments when I have time, I will keep making videos for this series, and hopefully it’ll be magical”

Working Plan

1. Focus on only one thing at a time
2. Process emotions around rushing or being in a hurry
3. Create an appropriately prioritized to do list
4. Take a lot of notes when taking a break so I can pick off where I left off
5. Timed meditation and off screen time for stronger focus

I’ve been feeling really out of sorts recently. Not going to bed at a reasonable time. Not brushing my teeth. Not eating well. And it all comes down to pressure. Pressure to post youtube videos. Pressure to perform at work. Pressure to rest my eyes. Pressure to do jiujitsu.

I feel beyond overwhelmed and turn to the only outlet I saw…gaming.

It’s almost as if my unconscious mind felt I really needed to meet my need to succeed and the fastest and easiest way with the lowest chance of failure is to win a game. Makes sense I guess.

In any case, I would like to return to a couple of core tenants.

1. Extreme focus to deal with the overwhelm. I only need to focus on one thing at a time.
2. Being there for myself. Asking myself every step of the day, what can I do to be there for myself.

In keeping with the tenant of focus, here are the priorities in order:

1. Health – let myself take care of myself
2. Getting work done for my job (to the degree where I feel comfortable)
3. Youtube

It’s been a while since I journaled on here.

I feel very tired at the moment, but I’m glad that I’m taking a step back and returning to my fundamentals.

What was the purpose of “Workposts” to begin with? It was a chance to practice being in the higher energies that I tap into with my coaching and plan out my days with it:

1. You’re in my house
2. Have patience
3. Be ok with silence
4. Take big risks

Today I am feeling into going fast and slow with two main projects.

First project, I want to move fast, with some long stretches of work, which is my YouTube video that I intend on shooting today. Here is the general structure of the video I’m pondering over:

1. “Shorts shorts short shorts shorts” while holding up different shorts and smiling at the last one with a YT shorts logo
2. “Ok so today, I’m taking these three viral Youtube Shorts and creating my take on them. My name is Jack and you’re watching episode 12 of the Youtube Challenge.”
3. “Welcome back to the Youtube Challenge, the challenge where I work through my emotional blocks to find out how to make the Content Creation process fun for myself by posting a new video every single day.”
4. “A quick update from yesterday, I was feeling very sad and depressed about my progress thus far on YouTube, and today I’m doing a little better. I noticed that in the process of shooting a video every single day, I’ve neglected the rest of my health and my day job and today I returned to the routines and systems that work for me. Like journaling in the morning and planning out my day.”
5. “One big epiphany I has was that every time I reach for my phone for distraction, I am feeling some intense physical discomfort and that I could feel much better by not picking up the phone but instead physically self soothing myself with stuff like rocking.”
6. “Well anyway, this video is about the shorts, so lets get into the shorts”
7. Viral short 1
8. React to short
9. Broll of editing my take
10. Viral short 2
11. React to short
12. Broll of editing my take
13. Viral short 3
14. React to short
15. Broll of editing my take
16. “That’s it for today, make sure you like comment and subscribe, peace”

The second project is going to be a slow thing that I chip away at throughout the entire day. Slow and steady wins the race right? This project has to do with a client I have, and I want to get them to an overall perfect state with at least no complaints for a while.

Let’s create a DOD:

Project: Undisclosed Client

Facts:

This project should improve product accuracy and usefulness
The deliverables I expect to see are new feature successfully deployed with a 60%+ first try success rate
This must be completed by today

Feelings:

When this is done, I will feel in control and confident about the product and customer relationship

Future:

When this is done, I will be able to focus fully on marketing efforts

I’ve finally gotten my business cards done! I’m pretty happy about that.

The main thing to do next is to make some money today.

I was to focus primarily on making fast money, at least 300 today.

Other than that, I want to think about my next step in my plan – which is making videos.

Finally, I think my final potential goal for today is to call some active retired individual retreats and see if I can teach a class there.

Today I feel like pretty weak and tired from doing a 5k in the morning. But I want to go to jiujitsu later today as well.

So today is going to be a time of hyperrecovery. I need to keep breathing and cough up some of the congestion that built up in my nose and lungs.

Today my main focus is building a landing page that will help increase sales, as well as finishing my business cards.

My strategy for recovery is going to be water and sleep. Lots of naps and water.

I slept ok last night, so I’m feeling pretty ok overall.

However, I do feel a bit drained.

I want to take it easy today. I want to play some Valorant, do some jiujitsu, and try to mark things off my to do list if possible.

Maybe I can squeeze some drawing in as well.

Today I’m tired and might be mildly sick. But I’m going to make the most out of it.

Today I would love to create a new landing page concept. It could level up our business by a lot.

For fun, I would like to play Valorant again. It was super fun last night.

I would also like to do some drawing while relaxing outside. That would be really nice.

Finally, I want to do some jiujitsu and maybe take a nap.

It would be nice to make some good money today as well.

These days I’m focused on increasing my leverage.

My intuition tells me that three things will unlock the money making potential that my abilities have.

1. Focus. I need to be ok with saying no to more things, focusing on one thing at a time. Lack of focus is creating overwhelm, which in turn costs me my productivity.
2. Fear of rejection. My fear of rejection holds me back from doing things that would instantly make me more money.
3. Youtube and content creation. This is a communication/art skill that has tremendously high leverage if I can figure it out.

Currently, I don’t have much time every day because I go for a run everyday and I am working on my vision and taking care of my health. That means I have perhaps 3 or 4 hours of good working time.

I originally was thinking about giving up or changing this practice I have so I’m less tired and can work more, but I’m actually gonna practice something different, which is saying no to more things.

I have so many things I sorta want to work on but I feel scattered. Part of the problem is that these new glasses are making me dizzy and I don’t really like them very much.

Here are some of my options:

• Figure out how to talk to retirement homes about art coaching
• Create art coaching website
• Write about social anxiety and process
• Process feelings of being a failure
• Improve vision
• Get better at video editing
• Work on my art
• Work on my music
• Improve my bloating
• Work on my sleep
• Work on my digestion
• Work on skool games

I feel lost and I just gravitate towards anything that has some level of an answer for me.

I feel that maybe there one answer to a lot of things. I strongly believe my bloating is due to stress. And while there are many ways to work on stress, I feel breathing might be one of the most powerful ways to manage stress.

If I focus on breathing, I can also focus on singing as it involves breathwork. I also believe it will make a big difference in my digestion and maybe even social anxiety.

So what if I focus on breathing for stress, bloating, anxiety, and singing. What if I make a video about it, hitting another area as well. What video format do I want to follow?

I think I’ll keep it simple, and follow Beau Miles, one of my favorites.