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Valorant 31: Class in Session – Unit 1 Day 1
UNIT 1: VOD Review | Day 1 – TenZ
Exercise: Imitate Tenz and imagine I am him
Lessons learned:
- I’m exhausted – fell asleep for a long time after watching and imitating for a short period of time
- Knife to gun transition – keeping knife out until dangerous angles, then switch to gun or do a jump peak while switching if no room
- Hold for peeks – clear where they might peek, not where they might be, continue to hold it or switch to another angle they can push you from
- Set graphics to low
- Don’t push smokes unless with flashes or off of someone else’s contact
- Spray with good spray control – pulling down
- Fall after spraying to reload
- Jiggle if holding close to an angle
- Warm up at the start of each round by flicking onto teammate heads
In game what I did very successfully:
- Spamming through smokes – I got many headshots through the smoke
- Holding peekable angles – I felt I got a lot more intentional to where I was staring
- Holding off angles when watching for the flank (specifically I utilized the place Tenz hid on Pearl in the first round to get kills
- Being more intentional of when the knife is out, I rarely got caught out with my knife. I figured out how much time it takes to pull out the gun, and I always timed it so that I pulled out my gun before peeking anything.
What I can improve on:
- Pulling out the knife more often when I know no one is close
- Spam more boxes
- Utilizing jump peeking more
- Making sure my peeks are still tight and clean and fast
- Being much more focused on holding specific peeks when slowly scaling up
Two Important Questions
I was thinking about the concept of how Alex Hormzi approaches learning. The idea that you purpose things in a way expecting to fail at first, but you pursue them in such a way that you make it hard for you to fail. That the chances that you will fail is lower than the chances of success.
I was thinking about what made emotional or spiritual success. And that brought me to a few different ideas. They all centered around one thing, the relationship with oneself. I believe that the relationship that you have with yourself dictates the freedom and happiness you have in life. Some ways in which I am not a kind or loving friend or parent to myself are:
- Thinking my needs are not important, especially if they make it less convenient for other people
- Shaming myself and comparing myself to other people
- Lashing out at myself when I’m not the best or successful
- Yelling at myself for making mistakes
- Putting on the pressure that if I’m not stressed I will not perform
- Being disgusted by my weakness
What if I took this idea from Alex Hormzi? What if I accepted I am going to be a shit friend and parent to myself but I am going to ask myself what I need to do to make it harder to be unkind and unloving toward myself than it is to be kind and loving?
Well, what would the most loving parent do for me?
- Value my emotions and encourage me to explore them
- Hold me close when I’m upset or feeling weak and vulnerable
- I am the most important person in their life, they will drop everything if I need them
- Be interested in hearing about new adventures and failures and lessons
- Does not see me as a static person but as a sum of everything I’ve been, where I’m now, and where I’m headed
- Guide me when I’m feeling lost or need to defend myself
I want to know how I can make it impossible for me to not do that for myself.
Some ideas come to mind:
- Create a meditative time to watch my own content (read my journals, watch my videos, listen to my recordings). It feels like 1,4 and especially 5. As a side effect, this can create GREAT opportunities for understanding what kinds of videos I can make.
- Write down and read my thoughts when I feel lost, scared, angry, ashamed or frustrated. Create a place to feel hurt. This can hit at 1,3, and 4, and maybe 6 if I write responses to things I write.
- Work on dance therapy especially the following elements: allowing the world to hold you, inward closing comfort, sensual movement and touch, outward releasing movement
I don’t know how to come up with a strategy on how to mix this in with my life yet but some of my ideas includes:
- Using therapists as a safe space to practice
- Using people who are close as a way to practice
- Using camera off meetings as a way to practice
- Using youtube videos and coaching as a way to practice
Failure & David Goggins
I’ve been thinking so long about the fear of failure and embracing pain since the fear of failure holds me back in almost every area of life.
David Goggins is famous for being someone who has made his thing embracing pain.
It’s interesting because I always wrote people like Goggins off, and I still feel like he is missing the subtle touch, the emotional and artistic, but I actually think he is onto something,
Some of the main takeaways:
- Embracing showing how messed up you are don’t care what anyone thinks
- Everyone is messed up, if they are judging you, they are just better at hiding it than you
- Use every naysayer as motivation
- When you embrace your faults, you will find the who you really are and pursue that
- Self discipline is creating self respect
This self discipline thing has always been interesting to me because I’ve heard this before. But I don’t really understand it. Isn’t discipline yelling at yourself?
The embracing failures and not hiding your failures to see what you really want to be is really telling to me as well. I always wonder what I should do, but I can wonder what I could do. And being willing to show everything wrong with me just will get me closer to clarity on who I am.
Letting The Empress Take The Wheel
My sister and I have this joke about the empress. According to a tarrot reading, my sister needs to rely more on her “inner empress”. What does this mean? Well apparently the emperor card stands for searching out and controlling the world, while the empress waits for the world to come to her.
This actually is in line with a thought process I had myself about being yourself.
Feeling free to be yourself = happiness. Feeling like you cannot be yourself is the root of ALL unhappiness. But how to be yourself is another very difficult story.
One way is a method I like to call, “Letting the empress take the wheel”.
Thoughts on The Video About Mastery
- Mastery is about feedback not just repetition as I always thought (with Valorant, then with language learning)
- People are bad at predicting things with randomized scenarios such as stocks, maybe it’s important to understand how to play the averages
- My thought is that people have a hard time predicting things that happen only once (presidential elections)
- I think lots of learning comes from motivation, finding it fun is HUGE is making you better and better
Valorant Challenge 1: Spike Rush Cypher
Today I didn’t have the time or the pc to play competitively. I played a couple of spike rush games as cypher.
Impressions:
- Hot damn it’s hard to play cypher. So much to put down in so little time. The cages are HARD to use as well.
- I don’t know if playing different agents will help me play. Maybe I should just refine my mains.
- I think agents like cypher play around their utility (they almost never peek unless they have to). I wonder if I should do that more with all agents (play around flash and grenades, shockdarts and mollys)
- Makes me think flashes are waay worse at getting info. It’s all or nothing. The timing needs to be right and you need to be able to push with your team to gain ground rather than flashing randomly.
- To counter a cypher I need to guess where the camera is and shoot it out. Requires knowledge of common cam spots. Dunno how I will get that knowledge without watching tons of videos. Poopers.
- Cage + wires can be OP since wires reveal and cage block their vision.
- You need to be f*cking fast on the camera or they will shoot it out.
- Crouch and shoot wires head level to get wires you cannot jump or crouch over or under.
I feel like my posture was pretty terrible after the practice. My left shoulder blade was hurting and my stomach was clenched.
I need to work on processing the emotions better and feeling my body more (using the sensual feeling technique I will discuss later). I will also need to work on posture exercises way more. After working my body for about 20 minutes with shaking, stretching, and posture exercises, my should mostly doesn’t hurt anymore and my digestion feels much better.