The Beauty of Eternal Loneliness
The Beauty of Eternal Loneliness
When I met her
I felt whole
Her love
Insistant, constant
Made me feel safe
Made me feel free
Accepted
Made me want to feel
Devoted
But when the loneliness came back
I tried to lean
On her
And I leaned instead
On a wall of toothpicks
Left behind
When I fell
The toothpicks scattered around me
I’ve never felt more alone in my life
I tried to fill something missing in me
With her
So much
I forgot
No one is forever
We are alone
From the moment we draw our first
To the last
And when I tried to desperately fill
The loneliness with her
The loneliness that was a part of me
I also lost
The one person
Who was there
Before she came
After she leaves
The only one
Who can be alone together
With me
Me
There is no shame in loving hard, loving deeply. All love comes with sadness and a special sort of sadness that can be so unbearable we try to cover its beauty. But don’t be afraid. Love is the most beautiful emotion we feel.
We seeks people who can heal us, compliment us and challenge us. It is the best thing in the world to seek out such people. Finding other people can be the most rewarding experience ever.
However, when we feel lonely, it reminds us to ask ourselves the question:
- How do I feel? Let the answer come to you.
- What would make you happy? What if you gave yourself permission to fail?
If we worry too much about losing someone:
- We feel the feelings
- A reminder that we are always alone
- We let our frustration out in a way that feels good (running, hitting something)
- Creating art that feels good
- Focus on the present, that is all that exists
We should never be afraid to love. But we should be afraid of trying to replace ourselves with them.