Protected: Workpost 23: Private

Today I want to spend some time solidifying knowledge from my project for my AI consulting business.

I also want to spend some time on my art coaching business. Also, I want to spend some time gaming and working on my project.

I think I will spend 1 hour on each of those things. AI consulting business in the morning, project in the afternoon, art coaching at night.

The reason why is that I’ve been out of balance, spending so much time working late at night. I need a little recharger. I want to work at stage 2 (like 60-70% max workrate).

If I feel 3 hours of work is at the lower end of stage 2, maybe it’s 40%, max workrate is maybe 8 hours. That makes sense, I think 8 hours is pushing it for absolute maximum amount of effective work (you can obviously work ineffectively for longer than that).

But now I think about it, maybe it is less about how many hours I work, but more how intensely I think. I dunno, interesting concept.

Ok so after feeling out of sorts all day, there is feeling I want to process:

Hopelessness and exhaustion. After obsessing about the project for many hours every day, I gave it my all, and all in all I think I failed. I got a few “this is great” “good work” but deep down I don’t feel people were inspired and even if they were, I don’t see a vision anymore. I’m not excited for the vision and I feel extremely tired and burnt out.

I feel sharp pain and burning in my heart and buzzing exhaustion in my head and eyes, and tension in my stomach.

The wounds coming up are: my work is meaningless. Nothing I do has any impact. Everything feels gray and uninteresting.

Feels almost like a stitch in my side but in my heart instead. My eyes feel sore and dry and my mind feels numb. There is a strong feeling of emptiness in my head, almost like meditation but instead of open, I feel drained, empty.

I feel anger in response, frustration burning in my abdomen, hatred for feeling so stuck by people who are not inspired. I feel disconnected. I am alone. I have no meaning.

There is also fear in my heart that nothing will have meaning, even coaching and AI consulting.

I feel really burnt out.

I feel pressure not to get left behind, to face the overwhelming work with little motivation to spare.

Ok, well I felt the feelings for some time. Here is my response:

1. This is good, because it allows you to take a break from work and focus on what you love
2. My client always tells me that having a good vision is not enough…that’s his coping mechanism he learned as a child, it doesn’t mean I have to agree or stop my creative process to prove him wrong
3. My job is to be inspired and spending time on things that inspire me is not a waste of time
4. Maybe it will be a good opportunity to meditate and see what comes up

Ok, we are in the home stretch for the first part of this business experiment.

The first big question I set out to solve is what is my lead magnet for art coaching? I know that I want to offer some free intro sessions, but it is now apparent to me that I want to do other types of lead magnets with people as well because I can’t do a free intro session with just people at the farmer’s market or at a conference (potentially at a conference but I’m not so sure).

Here are the potential lead magnets I have so far:

1. Prompts for dream creative projects
2. Artist masterpiece problem diagnosis
3. Free 1 hr Masterpiece planning call to determine creative project, project timeline, and plan
4. Free 2 hr coaching call after intro call

The second question I am pondering, is how do I make money off of the AI business?

I guess the answer to that, is that it doesn’t really matter if I make money off of it (at least initially), I just need to get good at dev because that in itself will make me money if I want to.

I have a new structure I want to propose for my matches.

• 5 mins – pregame win conditions (set my win conditions for the match)
• 15 mins – warmup
• 40 mins – the match itself
• postgame eval (see how close I am to my win conditions)

Match 1

Objectives: Go through todo list and work list for anything quick and get it done or make progress

Win conditions:

1. Speed: how quickly I make decisions and make progress (percentile)
2. Precision: how accurate my decisions are (percentile)
3. Ease: how rejuvenated and relaxed I feel (1-5)
4. Innovation: how creative and efficient “smart” my solutions are (percentile)

Post match review:

I went through the tasks pretty fast and I was left trying to find more work to do. I thought some tasks were super tedious and it makes sense why I didn’t want to do them. I did experience some stress from the sheer speed I was going at and some breaks might have been nice.

1. Speed: 65% percentile, fast but not crazy
2. Precision: 65% percentile, accurate but nothing crazy
3. Ease: 2 I honestly feel kinda tired, maybe no breaks
4. Innovation: 20% percentile, not really innovative at all

I haven’t figure out a way to do the process of downloading statements faster before I started. I didn’t think particularly much about the upwork post before I did it. One thing I learned is a little of prep might go a long way also, some breaks can help.