Workpost 63: Extreme procrastination

Byjack

I’m struggling with some extreme procrastination where I don’t want to work at all.

Let me try to process.

I feel like there is no point and I feel overwhelmed. I feel it in my chest, this invisible resistance.

I feel scared to shoot more videos, it brings up fear in my heart.

I guess anything I do I can break down into a process instead of doing everything all at once.

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UNIT THREE: Planning (day 4)

Byjack

Art Challenge

Create a beautiful website and business card that will inspire magic and creativity in a way that I don’t have to explain to people what I mean create it for my younger self

Creating it like a gift for all my future clients

Business card is a gift and does not need to be similar to my website

Website is hogwarts, the business card is the invitation

Business cards will be trading cards:
-paintbrush
-pen
-writers block
-plot armor
-chiruscuru

Website will start as a powerpoint story -> website layouts
Worlds are waiting to be created
Villian imagined, dragons born, heroes conceived

AI Challenge

My way to get into the industry is simple. I need to learn node.js, react.js and maybe AWS in order to have a foundation to create whatever app that I want to.

Once I have those three or so elements, all manner of apps are possible

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Workpost 37: Fundamental Systems

Byjack

Today I feel tired. My kidneys ache. They feel bloated and stagnated. My stomach feels slow. My head iches on the top. My eyes are dry. I feel burning inflammation up my back and spine. My skin is flaking on my face.

These past few days have felt exhausting, extremely stressful, and demoralizing. Last night, I asked myself the question, how do I get out of this.

I didn’t know the answer then, but my answer today during my walk was to take my stress seriously.

And just now, I had a realization that I have the systems developed to do extraordinary things. I just need to utilize them and follow their principals.

Systems in place:

  1. Daily walk to ponder questions I am stressed about
  2. Daily workpost to grow myself, plan for greatness
  3. Clean space to deal with stress, clean place = clean mind
  4. Meal prep strategy for healthy cheap meals with little stress – fridge containers, tacos, lettuce wraps
  5. Whiteboards to write strategies
  6. Off computer working systems (working while walking, running errands, working out, eating out)
  7. Todo list strategy – focus on one thing at a time, prioritize
  8. Clean after working hours to transition, decompress
  9. Crawling to get cardio in small space
  10. Walking backwards and tibialus for knee
  11. Hanging for shoulders and posture
  12. Working out after and before meals for better absorption, muscle growth, and recovery
  13. Journaling to ask myself questions at night
  14. Walking with no effort

I have absolutely everything I need to build a life where I can do almost anything I want, achieve anything I want.

Right now, I want to focus on two things: recovery and priming

Priming are stuff like cleaning, wiping off my whiteboards, clearing out tabs, filling markers, mealprep, todo list grooming

Recovery means lots of sleep, rest, hydration, and exercise. Specifically paying attention to anytime I want to game to see if I feel stressed or uncomfortable, taking a break when that happens.

To top off this post, I want to attach something that I want to erase from my whiteboard, but want to save forever:

Reasons Why I’m Ready

  • I’ve developed very deep and powerful life theories (flow, connection) → these theories can give anyone direction in darkness, I forget them but they come back when I need them
  • When faced with pain I’ve always come out stronger (ACL) → pain is the greatest teacher
  • I’ve proven that I can complete hard challenges (knee, sova) → I can achieve the challenges I set my mind to
  • I can solve problems few people can solve (triage, nikola) → normal rules don’t apply
  • I’m deeply attuned to emotions (coaching, art, philosophy) → makes it much easier to connect with people
  • I used to walk up to girls on the street → Nothing is something I can’t handle. There is nothing that I can’t ask for
  • No matter how badly I fail there are people who still love me
  • The point is not to get there, be productive or succeed, the point is to find a meaningful problem, problems we want to solve → we will never have no problems but we can choose which problems we want to contend with
  • Happiness doesn’t come from acing the past but seizing the now → its never too late to be happyIt’s near too late to fix it with a degree in engineering and parents who don’t mess with me
  • I have lots of assets and saving and a degree in engineering and parents and a sister all with money saved

AI Gaming + Art Coaching Days 60/63

Byjack

Ok, we are in the home stretch for the first part of this business experiment.

The first big question I set out to solve is what is my lead magnet for art coaching? I know that I want to offer some free intro sessions, but it is now apparent to me that I want to do other types of lead magnets with people as well because I can’t do a free intro session with just people at the farmer’s market or at a conference (potentially at a conference but I’m not so sure).

Here are the potential lead magnets I have so far:

  1. Prompts for dream creative projects
  2. Artist masterpiece problem diagnosis
  3. Free 1 hr Masterpiece planning call to determine creative project, project timeline, and plan
  4. Free 2 hr coaching call after intro call

The second question I am pondering, is how do I make money off of the AI business?

I guess the answer to that, is that it doesn’t really matter if I make money off of it (at least initially), I just need to get good at dev because that in itself will make me money if I want to.

Workpost 82: Returning to fundamentals

Byjack

It’s been a while since I journaled on here.

I feel very tired at the moment, but I’m glad that I’m taking a step back and returning to my fundamentals.

What was the purpose of “Workposts” to begin with? It was a chance to practice being in the higher energies that I tap into with my coaching and plan out my days with it:

  1. You’re in my house
  2. Have patience
  3. Be ok with silence
  4. Take big risks

Today I am feeling into going fast and slow with two main projects.

First project, I want to move fast, with some long stretches of work, which is my YouTube video that I intend on shooting today. Here is the general structure of the video I’m pondering over:

  1. “Shorts shorts short shorts shorts” while holding up different shorts and smiling at the last one with a YT shorts logo
  2. “Ok so today, I’m taking these three viral Youtube Shorts and creating my take on them. My name is Jack and you’re watching episode 12 of the Youtube Challenge.”
  3. “Welcome back to the Youtube Challenge, the challenge where I work through my emotional blocks to find out how to make the Content Creation process fun for myself by posting a new video every single day.”
  4. “A quick update from yesterday, I was feeling very sad and depressed about my progress thus far on YouTube, and today I’m doing a little better. I noticed that in the process of shooting a video every single day, I’ve neglected the rest of my health and my day job and today I returned to the routines and systems that work for me. Like journaling in the morning and planning out my day.”
  5. “One big epiphany I has was that every time I reach for my phone for distraction, I am feeling some intense physical discomfort and that I could feel much better by not picking up the phone but instead physically self soothing myself with stuff like rocking.”
  6. “Well anyway, this video is about the shorts, so lets get into the shorts”
  7. Viral short 1
  8. React to short
  9. Broll of editing my take
  10. Viral short 2
  11. React to short
  12. Broll of editing my take
  13. Viral short 3
  14. React to short
  15. Broll of editing my take
  16. “That’s it for today, make sure you like comment and subscribe, peace”

The second project is going to be a slow thing that I chip away at throughout the entire day. Slow and steady wins the race right? This project has to do with a client I have, and I want to get them to an overall perfect state with at least no complaints for a while.

Let’s create a DOD:

Project: Undisclosed Client

Facts:

This project should improve product accuracy and usefulness
The deliverables I expect to see are new feature successfully deployed with a 60%+ first try success rate
This must be completed by today

Feelings:

When this is done, I will feel in control and confident about the product and customer relationship

Future:

When this is done, I will be able to focus fully on marketing efforts

Workpost 85: Health Challenge

Byjack

I’ve decided to start on my health challenge today. What does that mean?

  1. An emphasis on taking care of my mental and physical health above all
  2. Creating boundaries and emotionally processing any pushback around not making my health a priority
  3. Certain goals:
    • Jiujitsu for 2+ hours every day
    • Boxing on the days I can go
    • Cooking all of my meals
    • Bedtime at midnight
    • Reduced or elimination of all processed sugars
  4. Work comes after health, and is designed to be rejuvenating instead of draining

This health challenge will run from today until the 15th – the day when I travel home. Then I will work on adjusting and finding a new routine.

Today, I want to ponder two things:

  1. What do I want to post as a video explaining what I’m doing with my youtube challenge?
  2. How will I support myself healthwise while working to make it rejuvenating?

Youtube Video

  1. “It’s over. I failed”
  2. “Welcome back to the 21 day youtuber challenge, my name is Jack you are watching episode 17.”
  3. “In this challenge, I was supposed to post a video every day for 21 days, and it’s safe to say I failed.”
  4. “I haven’t posted for multiple days in a row, the last episode actually shot multiple days before I released it because it took so long to edit”
  5. “The reason is simple, it took 6 to 8 hours to create every video from the ideation, to the shooting, to the editing and that just isn’t sustainable”
  6. “If I think of the ideal pyramid of life, it looks something like this” (Health, work, youtube)
  7. “But recently it’s felt upside down”
  8. “So what’s next? I still want to do the challenge – posting the rest of the 21 videos exploring what I like to make videos about. After all, I have so many more ideas to try out”
  9. “But I’m not going to release them every day anymore”
  10. “Here are 10 things I can focus on now that I’m not releasing videos at such a frantic pace”
  11. “But in those little moments when I have time, I will keep making videos for this series, and hopefully it’ll be magical”

Working Plan

  1. Focus on only one thing at a time
  2. Process emotions around rushing or being in a hurry
  3. Create an appropriately prioritized to do list
  4. Take a lot of notes when taking a break so I can pick off where I left off
  5. Timed meditation and off screen time for stronger focus