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Profit in Peace 5: Day One

Today is the first day in the profit in peace challenge live sessions.

Questions/thoughts:

  • Asking me to empty my cup
    • Isn’t this a question about time? What if I can’t quit my job or scared of doing it?
  • Hmm he means a few goals – fuzzy targets don’t get hit
  • The three Ps
    • Power – gain skills needed to maximize your natural strengths
    • Purpose – do something you love
    • Profit – products that sells themselves
    • Peace – at the center
  • I wonder if it is just because I’m so isolated but meeting with others becomes more important to me as soon as I get my alone time
  • But I do feel like I have charisma, I just burn out the more I work on things I don’t believe in
  • The lever is your why
  • But what if I don’t want to sell a physical product or do drop shipping
  • Trying to apply to what I want
  • Should I try this out? Or focus on what I want?
  • I’m guessing you somehow figure out what is a popular search, but aren’t there people already doing that?
  • Helium 10
  • At least 20k total searches
  • Rich buy time
  • The way that we see money and treat money comes from our parents
  • I can probably invest 5 to 10 thousand in my business
  • I can invest 10 to 15 thousand if I make 5000 in my coaching business

I actually got really stressed when attending this session.

I got stressed because I have my work and my coaching business and this challenge and I don’t want to do anything half-assed, but that’s what it felt like I was doing because I felt so scattered.

I decided to completely give up working on coaching for this week so I can fully focus on learning about e-commerce, then kind of work on coaching again afterwards.

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Coaching Session 11/18 VOD Review Part 2

Initial Reflections:

  • Silence makes me feel anxious
  • Flippant responses feel forced
  • Would it be artificial or fake to decrease the length of the silence? I like the silences but not how long they go on.
  • My hair looks goofy
  • I feel annoyed by my laughing, feels nervous
  • There is something comforting about this conversation
  • There is something valuable here without any editing
  • I do feel antsy everytime there is a long pause
  • I really hate my laughter
  • I really take some time to get to the point, should I cut it down?
  • Urgh at the drill sargent ifs stuff I feel like it is dragging on, I’m getting bored
  • I think I can just do some initial cuts and ask Brandon to approve them

Responding in the coaching mindset:

  • Good! Also we can always get rid of some silence if we need to.
  • Maybe there is a way to edit the flippant responses to make them more genuine
  • No this is our video, we do what we want with it. Sometimes you can get the gist of the silence without keeping the entire thing
  • Goofy is good!
  • It’s ok to be nervous. Maybe we can reduce the laughter? Sometimes we gotta risk laughing.
  • Hell yea
  • Yes, the editing is just to create a curated experience
  • We can reduce the silence
  • We can reduce if needed
  • Sometimes its ok to take a long time to get to the point. Part of the discovery feeling.
  • We can entirely cut out portions we don’t like. We can cut a part out and keep trimming it until it makes sense.
  • Sounds good to me. We can also ask him for parts we are really not sure about.

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Profit in Peace 5: Next Steps

Today I want it to be all about Instagram.

I want to do the following:

  1. Put in a good headshot
  2. Rework bio
  3. Create Instagram brand/colors
  4. Add in youtube videos, add brand
  5. Add friends and create offer

Also, I want to spend 20 minutes watching the next part of the coaching session.

Finally, I want to go after the brand and posts in a directed way. I’ll use the syllabus method.

A reminder for the syllabus method:

  1. Create a clear, ambitious, and exciting goal (something to inspire the angels)
  2. Use Alex Hormozi mindset (don’t think about how to achieve it, think about what would make it impossible for you to not achieve it)
  3. Break down those things into 3 steps
  4. If the steps are still too big and nebulous, break those steps into 3 more steps, repeating step 2 and 3

Goal: Create an Instagram page that is able to bring my energy of coaching to all artists, something so clear and powerful it is easy for me to create posts (3 hrs)

Step 1: Develop Brand (1 hr)

  • Tap into coaching energy, write down ideas
  • Try looka and other ai brand generators
  • Develop style guide

Step 2: Ask Questions and Get Answers

  • Put myself in the mindset of posting videos, posts, etc
  • Ask questions
  • Tap into coaching energy, answer questions
  • Research other similar brands

Step 3: Play Around With Brand

  • Create templates
  • Create sample videos and posts
  • Tap into coaching energy and adjust

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Like A Dried Pizza

Like A Dried Pizza

There is a dried pizza on my table

The last piece that I didn’t eat yesterday

It’s dry and cold

I feel I know what the pizza feels like

Last night

I didn’t sleep

All night

Tossing turning

Hoping the audiobook was loud enough

To tune out my thoughts

I felt so sure

In my stomach

That this was the end of the road for us

She isn’t the right one for me

I don’t know how I knew

But I knew it was over

I asked her to reassure me

And I felt her warmth

Like a blanket for a shivering man

I love her so much

I think about how vulnerable she is with me

I know she’s ready to stay with me forever

You don’t meet someone like that every day

The sadness in me

For once isn’t about comparison

It isn’t about comparing her with someone else

It’s just telling me

I can’t be with her any longer

I can’t keep up this act

I feel tired

So tired of explaining myself

Of feeling misunderstood

Yet

I don’t know

Her devotion feels like the cure for all pain

What is a drop of discomfort

For a lifetime of love?

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I Only Felt That Way Once

I Only Felt That Way Once

In the tiktok video

She was aggressively stating “shoulds”

The enemy of “is”

But one stood out to me

If you fall in love, you’re partner is the most beautiful one in the world to you

But I only felt that once

I used to think that meant I was in love

But I wonder

Was that love

Or just the honeymoon phase when you see

All the things you want to see

Yet there was a magic there I miss

Of not feeling anxious for a single moment

And I wonder what it would be like to feel like that

Maybe I will feel it when I fully embrace the anxiety

Feeling of frustration

Of shame

I don’t know

I just feel

Doubt

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Don’t Show Empathy

Don’t Show Empathy

He told me

He looked matter a fact

Almost amused

He looked over to my boss

At least that’s what I was told

Because then they will try to negotiate for more

He said

My boss nodded slightly

I asked them how to do this with empathy

And they told me not to

They told me to use words

To make him feel good

As if I valued him

They didn’t know

I’m not scared of this conversation

But I did value him

I don’t need to pretend

But they are asking me to wait until the last minute to tell him

I talked to him today

And he looked at me

And I felt so caged

Unable to meet his eyes

Unable to be honest

They want to wait

To spring it on him all at once

As if this is something that needs to be done

With the fear of retribution in mind

My boss told me that it would be kindness to drag things on

But I didn’t sleep last night

So tired

Wound up tight

Like something is squeezing my heart shut

Like a hydraulic press

I wonder if it is worth

Being in a place

Where I feel this way

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Coaching Session 11/18 VOD Review Part 1

This is my reflections of the first part of the coaching session, the first 20 minutes.

  • Everything up to the 10 minute mark seems really slow, should I keep that or not?
  • Would my client feel comfortable posting things about him and a love interest?
  • There is a sort of peace in how slow it goes but also can be antsy for the wrong person.
  • Maybe I should think in the frame of “what if people understood”? Seems like a really cool mentality given that I have a great deal of material.
  • I wonder if I come off try hard.
  • Is it bad to edit a lot and cut a lot? What if I mess up the progression? Or be less honest?
  • I love produced cuts, but are they artificial?
  • Born to be this high (instrumental) sounds really nice in the background. I dunno if I am changing the experience. But I suppose that is a good thing.
  • Really starts to pick up energy at the 20 minute mark

Resetting in the coaching mindset, here is my reflection on the reflections:

  • We ain’t cutting shit, use the slowness as a texture
  • Yea we talking about love if he’s down
  • Let’s use the energy in the antsyness and also find ways to energetically cut
  • If people understood, we can speak to them more clearly though clips (thinking about cutting clips into episodes and using snippets to be the intro of every episode)
  • Use the tension of trying hard cut it out when it is distracting
  • I want to preserve the order, but cut as much as I want to, especially cut more creatively
  • There is nothing wrong with produced cuts but they take away from this coaching call in this scenario because there is so much there. Use the produced cuts to make shorts.
  • Can use sound in the beginning and the end, keep the audio clean
  • Nicee
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Profit in Peace 4: Next Steps

I was thinking in the coaching mindset today and here were the next steps that came to me:

  • Divide coaching call into 20 minute segments
  • Make Instagram page more developed, make it my main page
  • Invite all artists to the page
  • Make offer
  • 100% off coaching
  • Looking for feedback and honest testimonials
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Working On Instagram

So things have been interesting recently. I have a lot of outlets in which to express my thoughts in: Instagram, video, blog post, journal, and slack channel. I don’t know where to post what. But I recently realized that I am taking my blog waaay too seriously. This blog is meant to be a place where I am boldly myself, but also giving me a staging ground to work things out, not come up with the final product. It is my place to draft out ideas, write poems about how I feel, try out videos that I’m not yet ready to publish. It is a place where I’m being unafraidly myself.

With that being said, I wanted to work out some of my thoughts with Instagram on this blog post. I have three Instagram accounts with an idea for a fourth one:

  • personal account
  • art account
  • coaching account

+ valorant account.

I’m going to take a stab at dividing purpose of different outlets:

Instagram – personal

  • Place to relax and talk to friends
  • Ask for help, suggestions
  • Practice challenges

Instagram – art

  • Place to work on art
  • Build worlds, characters
  • Find beauty
  • Ask about works in progress

Instagram – coaching

  • Place to remind myself different life lessons
  • Homepage for coaching, where I direct everyone
  • Write down what helps me reconnect with art

Instagram – valorant

  • Place to create training videos for myself to become the best
  • Reclaim mental

I don’t really know what the purpose of the slack channel is as current. Perhaps I can use it as a place to repost things that I post in different areas.

Profit in Peace 4: The Method

Main strategy: Always be present, what I feel is right

Work on using my blog to process feelings and embrace the Jack that gets rejected.

Then, for actions: use my coaching mindset

  • You’re in my house
  • Take risks
  • Don’t be afraid to be silent
  • Be patient

Mindsets that help with fear:

  • Let go of controlling things that I cannot (other people)
  • Control how I show up
  • Take up space
  • Hope that those who reject me leave so I can be free
  • Give myself permission to fail
  • I am capable of impossible
  • How do I want to do it MY way

So I ran through this exercise and here is what I worked through:

  1. What is next > Edit my video of the coaching session with my client
  2. How do I do it > Watch the video in 20-minute segments
  3. What do I do in the 20 minutes > Cut out parts my client doesn’t want to share, add my thoughts, publish to my blog
  4. What do I do after all of that > Edit the video through the syllabus method