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Core Wounds 8
Today I wanted to look at the core wound of feeling like no one will truly understand me and or truly love me.
Sharing Circle
I was in the circle
Of kings they said
I didn’t want to be there
I was just too sad
But they opened up the space for me
To tell my story
Of how I fell in love with a girl
Who I felt others wouldn’t approve of
But I still loved
How I felt like things went wrong
But not because I broke them
But because life
Sometimes
Isn’t easy or simple
I cried
When I thought about it
Felt safe to feel it
Like the time when I was at the party
Solomon turned to me
And said
I know how that feels
And Tim asked me to
Channel it into the karaoke
My pain my loss
I feel that pain now
The Health Challenge
I’ve been feeling pretty lost as of late. I am thinking about my youtube channel, about my job, about coaching, about my health and about my challenges with youtube and fitness. I’ve been stressed out about all these different things and I don’t really know how to tackle all of them at the same time. I don’t know what to focus on, which ones makes sense to put energy into, and how I will go about focusing on any of these things.
I’ve been feeling depressed, overwhelmed and depleted, constantly self medicating with youtube videos and games.
Recently, I’ve been inspired by this video:
Health is everything. If you want to be a successful entrepreneur, you don’t have to choose between that and health. You will be a better entrepreneur with better health.
I want to drop all of my other challenges and focus on this for a while.
I want to focus on my health.
I thought about what this meant for quite a while because health is such a nebulous topic. I feel that Brian Johnson in project Blueprint is taking a very scientific approach to health, but I want to take a more personal approach.
Here are the areas that I care about:
- Mood: How positive and happy I feel overall
- Passion for life: How motivated I feel about life, relationships and projects
- Energy: How energetic and strong I feel
- Flow: how in the moment and attuned to my body’s sensations I feel
- Attractiveness: how healthy I look
Some ideas of times that I can measure these things:
- When I wake up: great for seeing how well I slept
- Around 10 AM: good for checking up on my morning routine
- Around 3 PM: good for checking on my afternoon routine
- Before I go to bed: good to seeing the cumulative effect of the day and how fulfilled I feel
I’ve tried these type of challenges before, but I feel that I sort of neglected the mental part of health, feeling healthier physically but mentally trapped and unhappy. I want to really commit to doing video journaling this entire time in order to make sure that I can express myself and work through mental challenges.
What would mean success to me is not just feeling much more happy, passionate, energetic, in flow and attractive, but also to create a lifestyle, mindset and routine that will maintain and grow that over time.
The Sleep Deprivation Challenge
Life is pretty challenging:
- I am severely sleep deprived to feeling pins and needles, dry eyes and nausea
- I have a big work project due by next week that I pulled all niters for but still am not close to being finished
- I have taxes looming over me
- I still have a messy apartment and other goals like exercise of my knee to work on
The challenge is simple: survive, adapt and thrive
Profit in Peace 4: The Method
Main strategy: Always be present, what I feel is right
Work on using my blog to process feelings and embrace the Jack that gets rejected.
Then, for actions: use my coaching mindset
- You’re in my house
- Take risks
- Don’t be afraid to be silent
- Be patient
Mindsets that help with fear:
- Let go of controlling things that I cannot (other people)
- Control how I show up
- Take up space
- Hope that those who reject me leave so I can be free
- Give myself permission to fail
- I am capable of impossible
- How do I want to do it MY way
So I ran through this exercise and here is what I worked through:
- What is next > Edit my video of the coaching session with my client
- How do I do it > Watch the video in 20-minute segments
- What do I do in the 20 minutes > Cut out parts my client doesn’t want to share, add my thoughts, publish to my blog
- What do I do after all of that > Edit the video through the syllabus method
Aim Technique Ideas
Takeaways
- Prefiring is not about shooting them before you clear a corner, a prefire is about shooting before your brain registers that they are there
- Try jiggling with OP, when you repeek shoot without even knowing they are there
- Try to understand their tempo and timings for when a peek is happening and adjust your predictions of their patterns
- Can be strong in eco or save rounds
- Crosshair placement doesn’t replace aim, crosshair place IS aim
- If you can place crosshair faster and more accurately, you can also clear faster and prevent bad timings
Jiujitsu Journey Month 1: Exploration
Ok, so I just had a revelation.
I’ve been putting off making this post for the longest time because I just didn’t know what I wanted my goal and focus for this challenge to be.
I knew generally a couple of things:
- I knew I wanted to be more dangerous
- I wanted to get stronger
- I wanted to learn technique that could be a basis for MMA and grappling
- I wanted to feel motivated to work out again
But I had no idea of specifically what I wanted and how I wanted to get there.
But then it hit me. I don’t need to know. This is an experiment. I’m not setting a goal and see how close I get to it. I’m trying jiujitsu for a month and seeing how it will affect me. Along the lines of my goals:
- I want to see how it affects my fighting ability and mindset
- I want to see how it affects my body
- I want to see what concepts and techniques I grasped
- I want to see how it affects my relationship to exercise
Let’s go on a journey! That is why I renamed it Jiujitsu journey instead of jiujitsu challenge.
Core Wounds 8
Today I wanted to look at the core wound of feeling like no one will truly understand me and or truly love me.
Sharing Circle
I was in the circle
Of kings they said
I didn’t want to be there
I was just too sad
But they opened up the space for me
To tell my story
Of how I fell in love with a girl
Who I felt others wouldn’t approve of
But I still loved
How I felt like things went wrong
But not because I broke them
But because life
Sometimes
Isn’t easy or simple
I cried
When I thought about it
Felt safe to feel it
Like the time when I was at the party
Solomon turned to me
And said
I know how that feels
And Tim asked me to
Channel it into the karaoke
My pain my loss
I feel that pain now
The Health Challenge
I’ve been feeling pretty lost as of late. I am thinking about my youtube channel, about my job, about coaching, about my health and about my challenges with youtube and fitness. I’ve been stressed out about all these different things and I don’t really know how to tackle all of them at the same time. I don’t know what to focus on, which ones makes sense to put energy into, and how I will go about focusing on any of these things.
I’ve been feeling depressed, overwhelmed and depleted, constantly self medicating with youtube videos and games.
Recently, I’ve been inspired by this video:
Health is everything. If you want to be a successful entrepreneur, you don’t have to choose between that and health. You will be a better entrepreneur with better health.
I want to drop all of my other challenges and focus on this for a while.
I want to focus on my health.
I thought about what this meant for quite a while because health is such a nebulous topic. I feel that Brian Johnson in project Blueprint is taking a very scientific approach to health, but I want to take a more personal approach.
Here are the areas that I care about:
- Mood: How positive and happy I feel overall
- Passion for life: How motivated I feel about life, relationships and projects
- Energy: How energetic and strong I feel
- Flow: how in the moment and attuned to my body’s sensations I feel
- Attractiveness: how healthy I look
Some ideas of times that I can measure these things:
- When I wake up: great for seeing how well I slept
- Around 10 AM: good for checking up on my morning routine
- Around 3 PM: good for checking on my afternoon routine
- Before I go to bed: good to seeing the cumulative effect of the day and how fulfilled I feel
I’ve tried these type of challenges before, but I feel that I sort of neglected the mental part of health, feeling healthier physically but mentally trapped and unhappy. I want to really commit to doing video journaling this entire time in order to make sure that I can express myself and work through mental challenges.
What would mean success to me is not just feeling much more happy, passionate, energetic, in flow and attractive, but also to create a lifestyle, mindset and routine that will maintain and grow that over time.
The Sleep Deprivation Challenge
Life is pretty challenging:
- I am severely sleep deprived to feeling pins and needles, dry eyes and nausea
- I have a big work project due by next week that I pulled all niters for but still am not close to being finished
- I have taxes looming over me
- I still have a messy apartment and other goals like exercise of my knee to work on
The challenge is simple: survive, adapt and thrive
Profit in Peace 4: The Method
Main strategy: Always be present, what I feel is right
Work on using my blog to process feelings and embrace the Jack that gets rejected.
Then, for actions: use my coaching mindset
- You’re in my house
- Take risks
- Don’t be afraid to be silent
- Be patient
Mindsets that help with fear:
- Let go of controlling things that I cannot (other people)
- Control how I show up
- Take up space
- Hope that those who reject me leave so I can be free
- Give myself permission to fail
- I am capable of impossible
- How do I want to do it MY way
So I ran through this exercise and here is what I worked through:
- What is next > Edit my video of the coaching session with my client
- How do I do it > Watch the video in 20-minute segments
- What do I do in the 20 minutes > Cut out parts my client doesn’t want to share, add my thoughts, publish to my blog
- What do I do after all of that > Edit the video through the syllabus method
Aim Technique Ideas
Takeaways
- Prefiring is not about shooting them before you clear a corner, a prefire is about shooting before your brain registers that they are there
- Try jiggling with OP, when you repeek shoot without even knowing they are there
- Try to understand their tempo and timings for when a peek is happening and adjust your predictions of their patterns
- Can be strong in eco or save rounds
- Crosshair placement doesn’t replace aim, crosshair place IS aim
- If you can place crosshair faster and more accurately, you can also clear faster and prevent bad timings
Jiujitsu Journey Month 1: Exploration
Ok, so I just had a revelation.
I’ve been putting off making this post for the longest time because I just didn’t know what I wanted my goal and focus for this challenge to be.
I knew generally a couple of things:
- I knew I wanted to be more dangerous
- I wanted to get stronger
- I wanted to learn technique that could be a basis for MMA and grappling
- I wanted to feel motivated to work out again
But I had no idea of specifically what I wanted and how I wanted to get there.
But then it hit me. I don’t need to know. This is an experiment. I’m not setting a goal and see how close I get to it. I’m trying jiujitsu for a month and seeing how it will affect me. Along the lines of my goals:
- I want to see how it affects my fighting ability and mindset
- I want to see how it affects my body
- I want to see what concepts and techniques I grasped
- I want to see how it affects my relationship to exercise
Let’s go on a journey! That is why I renamed it Jiujitsu journey instead of jiujitsu challenge.
Core Wounds 8
Today I wanted to look at the core wound of feeling like no one will truly understand me and or truly love me.
Sharing Circle
I was in the circle
Of kings they said
I didn’t want to be there
I was just too sad
But they opened up the space for me
To tell my story
Of how I fell in love with a girl
Who I felt others wouldn’t approve of
But I still loved
How I felt like things went wrong
But not because I broke them
But because life
Sometimes
Isn’t easy or simple
I cried
When I thought about it
Felt safe to feel it
Like the time when I was at the party
Solomon turned to me
And said
I know how that feels
And Tim asked me to
Channel it into the karaoke
My pain my loss
I feel that pain now
The Health Challenge
I’ve been feeling pretty lost as of late. I am thinking about my youtube channel, about my job, about coaching, about my health and about my challenges with youtube and fitness. I’ve been stressed out about all these different things and I don’t really know how to tackle all of them at the same time. I don’t know what to focus on, which ones makes sense to put energy into, and how I will go about focusing on any of these things.
I’ve been feeling depressed, overwhelmed and depleted, constantly self medicating with youtube videos and games.
Recently, I’ve been inspired by this video:
Health is everything. If you want to be a successful entrepreneur, you don’t have to choose between that and health. You will be a better entrepreneur with better health.
I want to drop all of my other challenges and focus on this for a while.
I want to focus on my health.
I thought about what this meant for quite a while because health is such a nebulous topic. I feel that Brian Johnson in project Blueprint is taking a very scientific approach to health, but I want to take a more personal approach.
Here are the areas that I care about:
- Mood: How positive and happy I feel overall
- Passion for life: How motivated I feel about life, relationships and projects
- Energy: How energetic and strong I feel
- Flow: how in the moment and attuned to my body’s sensations I feel
- Attractiveness: how healthy I look
Some ideas of times that I can measure these things:
- When I wake up: great for seeing how well I slept
- Around 10 AM: good for checking up on my morning routine
- Around 3 PM: good for checking on my afternoon routine
- Before I go to bed: good to seeing the cumulative effect of the day and how fulfilled I feel
I’ve tried these type of challenges before, but I feel that I sort of neglected the mental part of health, feeling healthier physically but mentally trapped and unhappy. I want to really commit to doing video journaling this entire time in order to make sure that I can express myself and work through mental challenges.
What would mean success to me is not just feeling much more happy, passionate, energetic, in flow and attractive, but also to create a lifestyle, mindset and routine that will maintain and grow that over time.
The Sleep Deprivation Challenge
Life is pretty challenging:
- I am severely sleep deprived to feeling pins and needles, dry eyes and nausea
- I have a big work project due by next week that I pulled all niters for but still am not close to being finished
- I have taxes looming over me
- I still have a messy apartment and other goals like exercise of my knee to work on
The challenge is simple: survive, adapt and thrive
Profit in Peace 4: The Method
Main strategy: Always be present, what I feel is right
Work on using my blog to process feelings and embrace the Jack that gets rejected.
Then, for actions: use my coaching mindset
- You’re in my house
- Take risks
- Don’t be afraid to be silent
- Be patient
Mindsets that help with fear:
- Let go of controlling things that I cannot (other people)
- Control how I show up
- Take up space
- Hope that those who reject me leave so I can be free
- Give myself permission to fail
- I am capable of impossible
- How do I want to do it MY way
So I ran through this exercise and here is what I worked through:
- What is next > Edit my video of the coaching session with my client
- How do I do it > Watch the video in 20-minute segments
- What do I do in the 20 minutes > Cut out parts my client doesn’t want to share, add my thoughts, publish to my blog
- What do I do after all of that > Edit the video through the syllabus method
Aim Technique Ideas
Takeaways
- Prefiring is not about shooting them before you clear a corner, a prefire is about shooting before your brain registers that they are there
- Try jiggling with OP, when you repeek shoot without even knowing they are there
- Try to understand their tempo and timings for when a peek is happening and adjust your predictions of their patterns
- Can be strong in eco or save rounds
- Crosshair placement doesn’t replace aim, crosshair place IS aim
- If you can place crosshair faster and more accurately, you can also clear faster and prevent bad timings
Jiujitsu Journey Month 1: Exploration
Ok, so I just had a revelation.
I’ve been putting off making this post for the longest time because I just didn’t know what I wanted my goal and focus for this challenge to be.
I knew generally a couple of things:
- I knew I wanted to be more dangerous
- I wanted to get stronger
- I wanted to learn technique that could be a basis for MMA and grappling
- I wanted to feel motivated to work out again
But I had no idea of specifically what I wanted and how I wanted to get there.
But then it hit me. I don’t need to know. This is an experiment. I’m not setting a goal and see how close I get to it. I’m trying jiujitsu for a month and seeing how it will affect me. Along the lines of my goals:
- I want to see how it affects my fighting ability and mindset
- I want to see how it affects my body
- I want to see what concepts and techniques I grasped
- I want to see how it affects my relationship to exercise
Let’s go on a journey! That is why I renamed it Jiujitsu journey instead of jiujitsu challenge.