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Workpost 77: High Leverage

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These days I’m focused on increasing my leverage.

My intuition tells me that three things will unlock the money making potential that my abilities have.

  1. Focus. I need to be ok with saying no to more things, focusing on one thing at a time. Lack of focus is creating overwhelm, which in turn costs me my productivity.
  2. Fear of rejection. My fear of rejection holds me back from doing things that would instantly make me more money.
  3. Youtube and content creation. This is a communication/art skill that has tremendously high leverage if I can figure it out.

Currently, I don’t have much time every day because I go for a run everyday and I am working on my vision and taking care of my health. That means I have perhaps 3 or 4 hours of good working time.

I originally was thinking about giving up or changing this practice I have so I’m less tired and can work more, but I’m actually gonna practice something different, which is saying no to more things.

Stuck

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I feel exhausted. My head feels numb. I feel hot and tired. My back aches.

My heart feels heavy. I feel angry at myself. So helpless. My mind in a fog.

My apartment is a mess. I just want to cry.

I can’t work. I just play games all day long. my eyes feel tired.

It’s 2 o’clock in the morning. All I want to do is eat and play video games. The pull is so strong in my heart like there is a strand of honey getting pulled.

I feel a numb panic deep in my chest. I’m afraid of failure. I’m scared I will disappoint myself and everyone around me. Pushing myself to make my business cards is only making me curl up even harder.

It was a long week. I’m exhausted. But the work just keeps coming.

I guess I can cancel tai chi tomorrow. Sleep in.

Tonight I can clean my apartment until I feel more peaceful.

I know I can use the gym as a way to process emotions, but I don’t use it.

I feel this pull, this overwhelm, like the honey being pulled, from my heart.

I’m capable of anything. Even rising from this challenge. This is important because as I get more successful, there will be days I feel exhausted, and in those moments, I need to find a way to find balance, to find peace.

I also want to learn to embrace failure. Failure is so scary to me. There is an image in my mind of my business cards being a complete disappointment and I feel a pit in my heart. A horrible amaturish website I’m not proud of and I can’t fix it.

Everyone starts somewhere. Everyone starts at the beginning. The people who are exceptional, who are savants are not people who started at the middle. They are people who enjoyed the beginning.

But how can I enjoy this? I feel so scared it won’t be good.

Makes me think of this video:

In this video, Jesse talks about how play allows us to feel pressure while still being able to learn.

That fun is the key to this.

But what is the key to fun? What would make this fun for me, regardless of the outcome, what would make designing and drawing fun for me?

What would make it an infinite game, not just a finite game focused on an end goal?

It’s true, the thought of designing business cards does not sound fun to me at all. It sounds like a slog. But maybe that’s because I’m worried about failing.

Ok, what if I tried to merge my painterly style with “woodcut” style prints. What if I created a new drawing technique that I could use to create cool stuff for friends and to sell as products?

That definitely sounds more like play to me.

So what about going to the gym, because I like it so much when I actually go, but I find it hard to go to begin with.

What if I saw it as supercharging myself – which it really is doing. Whether I go to lift weights or just to hang from the bar and stretch it really is building my body up to full potential. It might even solve my sleep problems.

And what about sleep, why do I not want to go to bed? Because if I go to bed, tomorrow, I wake up with tons of problems. Well maybe, that’s not a bad thing. Maybe before I go to bed, I fill my to do list with questions that I want to search out the answers to.

Here are the questions I have today, that if I knew the answers to I would rest easy:

  1. What am I going to do about my art coaching and AI gaming companies?
    • Am I behind schedule and if so what do I do about it?
    • Should I extend the schedule?
    • Am I losing money?
  2. How do I get out of my procrastination phase and get working?
  3. What do I do about my art coaching website?
  4. How do I get everything done in such a short period of time?
  5. Should I start registering for fairs?
  6. Should I pay someone to design the website for me?
  7. How am I going to get the motivation to start drawing? How do I start drawing consistently?
  8. How do I start going to the gym and working outsite the apartment consistently?
  9. How will I start cooking again and cleaning up my apartment? Where will I find the time?
  10. How will I prepare for the next week of work? How do I balance my other businesses?
  11. When will I continue to work on my Javascript projects? What is the breakdown between AI work time and coaching work time.

AI Consulting Days 34-35/63

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I need to do some brainstorming about my new niche.

I do think that banking is not a niche I want to start in because it is harder to take someone who is making a lot of money and make them purposeful than it is to take someone who is purposeful and help them make money. At least for me. At least while I don’t have a proven track record yet.

If I focus on the non-profit arena, the goal is to understand current what the state is with non-profits. I don’t know how to answer that question except by talking to people working there.

I may have some people who can help in that arena but I don’t know if reaching out to them will take some time, and even if they do, what is the answer? I just don’t know if they can speak to the whole industry.

Here are my thoughts:

  1. Use AI to brainstorm
  2. Look for people in my network to talk to

Ideas from AI:

  1. Look at these studies
  2. Look at nonprofit conferences
    • Review recent non-profit technology conference agendas for AI-related sessions
    • Look at speaker profiles and presentation topics
  3. Look for grantmaking foundations focusing on AI for social good. This indicates a growing interest in AI within the nonprofit sector.
  4. Social Media Listening: Use AI-powered social listening tools to analyze conversations around AI in the nonprofit sector.

I am also thinking about the 10k for for-profit companies and wondering if non-profits have something similar in the forms they must make publicly available in the 990 and 1023.

Here are the non-profits I want to look at:

  • Arbor Day Foundation
  • Cousteau Society
  • Natural Resources Defense Council
  • Unitarian Universalist Service Committee (UUSC)
  • Environmental Defense Fund
  • Jane Goodall Institute
  • Advice for Life by Your True Nature
  • National Audubon Society

Looking into job postings:

Non-profit conferences:

Workpost 72: Refocusing

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There are a couple of things I’m feeling into.

  1. I wonder if I have prediabetes since I do not feel well after eating sugar. I feel a bit numb and my stomach doesn’t feel good. I feel it in my kidneys as well.
  2. I really want to tackle my bloating and take it seriously. I was able to find way to tackle my knee issues, I should be able to tackle them too. My first thought is just to massage right below the belly button softly but for a long time, it tends to work and is very gentle.
  3. I want to refocus on my businesses, maybe create some challenges around them now that I’m excited and motivated to work on them again.
  4. I want to do what I set out in the last workpost, cleaning out my to-do list as cleanly as possible.

Ok here are some of the symptoms of prediabetes:

  • Increased thirst – yes at night
  • Frequent urination – nope
  • Increased hunger – nope
  • Fatigue – not really more than usual
  • Blurred vision – nope
  • Numbness or tingling in the hands or feet – nope, more on the back
  • Unexplained weight loss – nope
  • Dark spots on the skin – nope
  • Skin tags – nope
  • Slow healing of cuts and wounds – nope

So I probably don’t have prediabetes, just don’t respond well to glucose spikes or processed sugars.

In terms of bloating, I want to keep it simple, just doing very light circles right below my belly button really is causing me to feel like my gas is leaving. I want to make it a habit to do that when I’m feeling bloated.

Also, when I feel stressed, I want to focus on breathing. I want to charge my watch more often and use it to check my stress levels.

I’ll leave my business planning to dedicated blog posts, but overall, my next step is to improve my working tools and setup.

Matches: Drudgery

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Match 1

I feel pretty overwhelmed and unhappy to work because there are a lot of tedious work to do that I don’t feel is very fun. In this first match, I just want to get everything done so I can move on.

Criteria for success:

  1. Speed (percentile)
  2. Efficiency (percentile)
  3. Intellect (percentile)
  4. Energy (1-5)

Warmup: Cleaning + walk + meditation/breathwork

Gameplan

UNIT ONE: Set up api calls

UNIT TWO: modify prompts

UNIT THREE: testing

Postmatch analysis:

I definitely did not follow the plan, yet everything somehow got done anyway.

  1. Speed – 65% I was pretty fast, knowing what I need to do and was focused. Nothing too special though.
  2. Efficiency – 60% I was ok efficiency, could have coded my way to better efficiency though
  3. Intellect – 60% I definitely used my intellect to speed things up but it could have been accomplished by many people.
  4. Energy – 3 I feel ok, which is a win.