Workpost 52: Exhausted

These days I feel a bit lethargic. It might just be because I’m recovering from 5ks and need more rest than normal. I also just feel a lot of pressure overall. I see these mornings as a way for me to slowly set up my house, set up my mental space as a good place to work.

I like to go through my to do list, my calendar, and work things out.

On thing that occurs to me when I’m thinking through my to do list is that I’m way to ambitious and unfocused. The point of the to do list is to brain dump and really find the most important high priority thing (using emotional priority not logical priority).

And before I even think about prioritizing, I want to get back to building my house – you are in my house, take risks, be ok with silence, take your time.

Today my main goal is to finish my business cards and website for my art coaching.

Another main system or habit I want to institute, if I miss a time block to do something on my calendar, I delete the event and add it back to my to do list.

It’s been a while since I journaled on here.

I feel very tired at the moment, but I’m glad that I’m taking a step back and returning to my fundamentals.

What was the purpose of “Workposts” to begin with? It was a chance to practice being in the higher energies that I tap into with my coaching and plan out my days with it:

1. You’re in my house
2. Have patience
3. Be ok with silence
4. Take big risks

Today I am feeling into going fast and slow with two main projects.

First project, I want to move fast, with some long stretches of work, which is my YouTube video that I intend on shooting today. Here is the general structure of the video I’m pondering over:

1. “Shorts shorts short shorts shorts” while holding up different shorts and smiling at the last one with a YT shorts logo
2. “Ok so today, I’m taking these three viral Youtube Shorts and creating my take on them. My name is Jack and you’re watching episode 12 of the Youtube Challenge.”
3. “Welcome back to the Youtube Challenge, the challenge where I work through my emotional blocks to find out how to make the Content Creation process fun for myself by posting a new video every single day.”
4. “A quick update from yesterday, I was feeling very sad and depressed about my progress thus far on YouTube, and today I’m doing a little better. I noticed that in the process of shooting a video every single day, I’ve neglected the rest of my health and my day job and today I returned to the routines and systems that work for me. Like journaling in the morning and planning out my day.”
5. “One big epiphany I has was that every time I reach for my phone for distraction, I am feeling some intense physical discomfort and that I could feel much better by not picking up the phone but instead physically self soothing myself with stuff like rocking.”
6. “Well anyway, this video is about the shorts, so lets get into the shorts”
7. Viral short 1
8. React to short
9. Broll of editing my take
10. Viral short 2
11. React to short
12. Broll of editing my take
13. Viral short 3
14. React to short
15. Broll of editing my take
16. “That’s it for today, make sure you like comment and subscribe, peace”

The second project is going to be a slow thing that I chip away at throughout the entire day. Slow and steady wins the race right? This project has to do with a client I have, and I want to get them to an overall perfect state with at least no complaints for a while.

Let’s create a DOD:

Project: Undisclosed Client

Facts:

This project should improve product accuracy and usefulness
The deliverables I expect to see are new feature successfully deployed with a 60%+ first try success rate
This must be completed by today

Feelings:

When this is done, I will feel in control and confident about the product and customer relationship

Future:

When this is done, I will be able to focus fully on marketing efforts

It’s time to think through the plan for each of my businesses a little more carefully.

I want to spend 3 months setting up the funnel for each of my businesses and 3 months trying out and running the funnels.

Let’s breakdown what that looks like.

Art Coaching

Start: 7/12 | End: 9/12 | 63 days total

What needs to be done for the funnel:

1. Payment/banking systems
2. How much to pay myself vs save for taxes vs reinvest into business
3. Website
4. Business cards
5. Calendly
6. Client contracts
7. Mailing lists/CRM

General Aim: To make a beautiful creative world on my website, business cards, social media that reminds me of adventure, magic, and dreams

Next step for MVP…

3 day challenge – Make a mess

By the end of the challenge:

1. Print out business cards
2. Have a WordPress website with basic information on it
3. Figure out how to do scheduling with Calendly

AI Consulting

Start: 7/12 | End: 9/12 | 63 days total

What needs to be done for the funnel:

1. Payment/banking systems
2. How much to pay myself vs save for taxes vs reinvest into business
3. Website
4. Business cards
5. Calendly
6. Client contracts
7. Mailing lists/CRM
8. Branding
9. New contract for funnel

General Aim: To create a place where business owners with the talent and potential can go to unblock their problems

Next step for MVP…

3 day challenge – Create website

By the end of the challenge:

1. Website that clearly shows brand and services
2. Clear way to schedule a consultation with me
3. Be able to talk to local meetups

I’ve been feeling really out of sorts recently. Not going to bed at a reasonable time. Not brushing my teeth. Not eating well. And it all comes down to pressure. Pressure to post youtube videos. Pressure to perform at work. Pressure to rest my eyes. Pressure to do jiujitsu.

I feel beyond overwhelmed and turn to the only outlet I saw…gaming.

It’s almost as if my unconscious mind felt I really needed to meet my need to succeed and the fastest and easiest way with the lowest chance of failure is to win a game. Makes sense I guess.

In any case, I would like to return to a couple of core tenants.

1. Extreme focus to deal with the overwhelm. I only need to focus on one thing at a time.
2. Being there for myself. Asking myself every step of the day, what can I do to be there for myself.

In keeping with the tenant of focus, here are the priorities in order:

1. Health – let myself take care of myself
2. Getting work done for my job (to the degree where I feel comfortable)
3. Youtube