I’ve been unofficially focusing on posture for some time now, including mewing, building muscles and strength, and ultimately for more a more aesthetic, healthy, and functional body.
A really helpful video is this:
I always have a lot of tightness in my chest and would like to have more of a wider back and more shoulder mobility.
So immediately after thinking about the eye challenge post I just wrote, I decided that I’m making things too difficult and over complicated.
I should keep things simple and increase my likelihood of success.
Current approx eyesight:
about 6cm away from phone for clear vision
100/6 = -16.6 diopters
UNIT TWO: Create a unique drawing
There is one drawing that I’ve always wanted to create, and luckily, I already have a photo reference for it!
I am eager to use my skills on this new pose as well, but the intricacies of Sova’s outfit is definitely making me nervous.
Here is my mini syllabus:
UNIT ONE: Create a manikin structure drawing from life
UNIT TWO: Go into the game and use the character model to get the all the sova details and map them in.
UNIT THREE: Create a more refined drawing in preparation for final inks.
I’m too tired to talk much about what actually happened. I spent at least 12 hours on this process.
I did not have the chance to color to perfection, I also sadly left Professor Sova on the draftroom floor.
Things I learned:
Today I had a strategy session with my brother who is almost at the rank I want to be (Plat) about major mindset shifts I need to do to get out of Bronze and Silver.
Here are the main areas we came up with:
I’ve completed the profit in peace challenge but there is a few things I want to wrap up.
Some thoughts:
Overall I feel much more encouraged. This is the right path for me. I feel confident in my methods. I’m forging a path that no one has ever forged before. The point is not to get orthodox results, the point is to capture my progress, my feelings, and my experience. I will continue to use connection theory on French in order to learn more intuitively and use connection theory on myself in order to deal with my feelings of uncertainty and being overwhelmed.
I don’t know exactly if this is a core wound, but I strongly believe that I am responsible for people’s emotions and that I am a bad person.
In order to process this (a rebalance my emotions), I am going to focus on a time when I hurt someone and focus on the part right before it so I can remember that there is a good reason for doing what I did and perhaps have a little more compassion for myself.
She was a lonely girl
Quiet and shy
I wanted to be kind
By being a good friend
But she seemed to want more
When she asked me
If she could sleep in my bed
What to do
If she was sexually frustrated
I did my best to set my boundaries
I did my best to be firm
But she kept pushing
And it was too much
I knew too little
To do anything than
To push her away hard
After years
Of sending me letters and emails
She must have know
I didn’t want to talk
I just wish
She knew
It wasn’t her fault
That I didn’t like her
But I needed
To be able to say no