Workpost 56: Stagnating

Byjack

I feel like I’m stagnating in all areas of life.

I feel frustration as aching in my chest cavity and stomach.

I am helpless wound coming up. I am overwhelmed. I feel hopeless. I feel undermotivated. I am lost.

I am tired.

I discovered some things yesterday. I realized that I was obsessed about getting the brand and vision correct, but my goals for my consulting project are actually much more simple:

  1. Get experience in creating funnels/pipelines that are simple, effective, easy to maintain
  2. Make my client’s company cooler and inspire the people within to do more

The brand and vision just serve as a tactical basis for getting the funnel right because having no vision leads to pretty shitty, unclear websites and ads and makes decision making much harder than it needs to be.

Another thing I recognize is that mission, vision, and values are all things that need to evolve and change as what I want becomes clearer and clearer.

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Workpost 81: Making Money

Byjack

I’ve finally gotten my business cards done! I’m pretty happy about that.

The main thing to do next is to make some money today.

I was to focus primarily on making fast money, at least 300 today.

Other than that, I want to think about my next step in my plan – which is making videos.

Finally, I think my final potential goal for today is to call some active retired individual retreats and see if I can teach a class there.

Workpost 84: Focus

Byjack

I’ve been feeling really out of sorts recently. Not going to bed at a reasonable time. Not brushing my teeth. Not eating well. And it all comes down to pressure. Pressure to post youtube videos. Pressure to perform at work. Pressure to rest my eyes. Pressure to do jiujitsu.

I feel beyond overwhelmed and turn to the only outlet I saw…gaming.

It’s almost as if my unconscious mind felt I really needed to meet my need to succeed and the fastest and easiest way with the lowest chance of failure is to win a game. Makes sense I guess.

In any case, I would like to return to a couple of core tenants.

  1. Extreme focus to deal with the overwhelm. I only need to focus on one thing at a time.
  2. Being there for myself. Asking myself every step of the day, what can I do to be there for myself.

In keeping with the tenant of focus, here are the priorities in order:

  1. Health – let myself take care of myself
  2. Getting work done for my job (to the degree where I feel comfortable)
  3. Youtube

Workpost 10: Shortpost

Byjack

Today I want to write a short post because I want to strike a better balance today between work and indulgence, between freedom and routine.

Yesterday I did have fun, but my need for productivity left me feeling stressed because I didn’t get much done. At the same time, I want to fully enjoy what I did yesterday which was play and watch a lot of Valorant.

If I’m able to do that, go outside and be more active, as well as go to sleep at a good nice, I’ll be pretty happy.

Right now, I feel like shit cuz I went to bed at 1am but that’s ok…I needed to unwind a bit!

So this is going to be a short post because I’m gonna get started with work right away. I want to get enough work done, that I can start trying out this working while walking outside and going to the gym and working on art.

I did this yesterday for a very little time and it was absolutely awesome. I drove to go get food and while I was walking I was asking chatgpt about a coding problem I had and thinking about it.

It felt really good. Productive, free, and fun! Now I need to take that code, implement it, make it work so I can be active again and solve the next piece of the puzzle.

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Workpost 6: Revelations About Coaching Part 1

Byjack

My first day of meditating and brainstorming ideas for my coaching.

UNIT ONE: Focus on my craft – become a coach I would hire for 1000 per month | Create plans

Here are my initial ideas:

  • Do a strengths assessment (maybe something inspired by other strengths assessments such as Clifton strengths, Myers Briggs, DISC or Enneagram)
  • Do a values assessment (similar to strengths assessment)
  • Do a ikigai assessment?
  • Do an assessment on how well balanced in different areas of life
  • Create an agreement document
  • Look up some of the documents from my coaching with John Polestra
    • Agreements, assessments, and my own goals structures
  • Networking
    • Social media experts?
    • Network with other clients
    • Sales people
    • People who have a band?
  • Create a meditation shortcut
    • Dedicate a significant amount of time (time = results)
    • Act like it is forever
    • Live in the land of sensations
    • Be patient
  • Create method for capturing thoughts from coaching session
    • Breakthroughs
    • Million dollar issues
    • Emotions
    • Needs
    • Sparks of inspiration
  • I would want to hire the following coach
    • Intelligent
    • Warm, loving
    • Insightful and deep

I wonder what it takes to be that loving person. I feel that I need to enjoy life, and go on more adventures. Perhaps I need to be more accepting myself. All I know is that practicing some sort of radical acceptance and understanding towards myself and my clients, being vulnerable and loving is worth $1000 per month in itself. That takes a lot of work and I’m not entirely sure what I need to do next. I feel a bit stumped to be honest, but I suppose that is something I can meditate on more tomorrow.

Matches 3: Tired

Byjack

Results from day 3 while tired and a little stressed.

Match 1

Reflections:

  1. My mind is kind of sluggish, but this way of working where I’m warming up, then taking breaks to walk is genuinely very relaxing. I don’t feel tired at all from the work.

Result Calculation:

  1. How much do I think this work is worth? I feel this work was worth less maybe $100. I feel like there were some programmer heavy tasks in here but not a huge amount was accomplished.
  2. How difficult intellectually was this work from 1-10? I’d say this work was middling difficulty. Maybe around a 4. It was deceptively simple in the sense that it’s very basic information added, but takes a bit of thinking.
  3. What percentile do I place this work in terms of innovation? 5%. Not very innovative, business as usual.
  4. Gains in communication and charisma? Fair gains in communication and charisma, it is amazing to be able to show some of the information that I exposed in the data.

Match 2

Reflections:

  1. I tried to do some chess as a mental warmup, but I feel like it left me drained, perhaps next time as a mental warmup, I can try playing chess for creativity not for the win
  2. Overall I felt my energy draining in this match. I felt pretty tired.
  3. I did some extra work after the match and I feel pretty tired. I felt I needed to squeeze that extra bit out.

Result Calculation:

  1. How much do I think this work is worth? $120. It was pretty not special, some of the work I did programmatically could have been done by someone very cheap, but overall I ran tests that required a lot of deep level troubleshooting that is not easy.
  2. How difficult intellectually was this work from 1-10? 6-7. It was debugging which can be extremely difficult, especially for someone who doesn’t know my code.
  3. What percentile do I place this work in terms of innovation? 5% I don’t know if anything got innovated here.
  4. Gains in communication and charisma? Good gains, gets me much closer to the final goal of presenting results.

Match 3

Reflections:

  1. Focused a lot on thinking smart not hard
  2. I noticed that taking a break is important, staying on the train of thought only makes you want to choose the easiest path, not the most intelligent
  3. Changed work time to 15 minutes
  4. Still need to let go of going fast in the warmup
  5. Like to dance on the breaks

Result Calculation:

  1. How much do I think this work is worth? $150. I was able to output results which is worth a ton, but to just hire someone to do this step, it’s probably less money. There was a lot of data and data manipulation involved as well as some troubleshooting.
  2. How difficult intellectually was this work from 1-10? The output file is quite complex. I give it a 7 in intellectual difficulty. Not achievable by people of lower intelligence, but easy for people of high intelligence.
  3. What percentile do I place this work in terms of innovation? 10% Not much was innovative, the data is quite interesting though.
  4. Gains in communication and charisma? I laid the groundwork for much better result communication, I think it was great.

Workpost 72: Refocusing

Byjack

There are a couple of things I’m feeling into.

  1. I wonder if I have prediabetes since I do not feel well after eating sugar. I feel a bit numb and my stomach doesn’t feel good. I feel it in my kidneys as well.
  2. I really want to tackle my bloating and take it seriously. I was able to find way to tackle my knee issues, I should be able to tackle them too. My first thought is just to massage right below the belly button softly but for a long time, it tends to work and is very gentle.
  3. I want to refocus on my businesses, maybe create some challenges around them now that I’m excited and motivated to work on them again.
  4. I want to do what I set out in the last workpost, cleaning out my to-do list as cleanly as possible.

Ok here are some of the symptoms of prediabetes:

  • Increased thirst – yes at night
  • Frequent urination – nope
  • Increased hunger – nope
  • Fatigue – not really more than usual
  • Blurred vision – nope
  • Numbness or tingling in the hands or feet – nope, more on the back
  • Unexplained weight loss – nope
  • Dark spots on the skin – nope
  • Skin tags – nope
  • Slow healing of cuts and wounds – nope

So I probably don’t have prediabetes, just don’t respond well to glucose spikes or processed sugars.

In terms of bloating, I want to keep it simple, just doing very light circles right below my belly button really is causing me to feel like my gas is leaving. I want to make it a habit to do that when I’m feeling bloated.

Also, when I feel stressed, I want to focus on breathing. I want to charge my watch more often and use it to check my stress levels.

I’ll leave my business planning to dedicated blog posts, but overall, my next step is to improve my working tools and setup.