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Workpost 53: Overwhelmed

Byjack

I feel overwhelmed and exhausted today. I want to finish a lot of things today but I feel overwhelmed thinking about it. Maybe it’s time to process more fears.

I have to finish my work today.

I feel it in the pit of my stomach, my chest this numbing roaring anxiety but also exhaustion and numbness in my head.

I feel like a failure. I’m panicking about not being able to get work done.

One thing that came up for me is that working really hard can help me sleep. All I need to do is fail at creating a package. All I need to complete the deliverable, it doesn’t matter if I do it in a shitty way.

Tony Robbins said to fall in love with your customer.

I want to see my customer succeed. I want to see them happy and thriving. I can make that happen.

I’m afraid to sleep. I’m afraid the day will pass me by.

Not being able to sleep means there is extra energy I have to use. I can use that energy to help my customer and myself. You don’t need to sleep until you feel that release.

I’m afraid I will play Valorant or do something else to cope. I’m afraid the day will pass me by. I’m afraid my addictions will drain me of energy.

Wanting to play Valorant is a sign for massage and addressing some of the physical issues I am experiencing.

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Workpost 28: Taxes & Art Therapy

Byjack

Today I feel very tired but at least better rested than normal. I really want to finish my taxes today and I also want to experiment with art therapy and exercise to help get through the stress and effort of finishing.

My initial thoughts about art therapy is that it is all about reconnecting with your body…to do flow theory or follow what you feel. Art is about touching the forms with lines and paint, music is about creating sound, dance is about moving your body.

I’m doing more research. Here is a video that talks about using art to find a safe place:

Here is another video:

Current art therapy ideas:

  1. Express what you feel kinesthetically
    • Scribbling
    • Banging on the piano
    • Flow theory dance
    • Free writing
  2. Create a safe space, express what feels safe
    • Drawing
    • Writing
    • Music
  3. Repetitive motions
    • Shapes
    • Chords
    • Motions

But how does this translate to greater art creation? How does this create a world?

Thinking about this more, art creation is about the following:

  1. What you want to share with others
  2. What you find beautiful
  3. What you feel wonder about
  4. What stories you want to tell
  5. What is quirky, unique, and creative
  6. What worlds you want to live in and provide others

I have a couple ideas of how to transition from therapeutic art to art art:

  1. My therapy exercise (take a problem and solve it in the story by making the main character face a problem 10x more painful)
  2. Express what emotions you are feeling strongly
  3. Capture a memory
  4. Start with a characters
  5. Start with world
  6. Do a fanfic
  7. Daydream

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Workpost 24: Feeling Good and Business Plans

Byjack

Last night I was feeling some doubts about my coaching practice and I did some IFS therapy on myself to work through some of the shame and anger I feel around people rejecting my coaching or not seeing its value.

Today, I woke up feeling really tired but now I’m feeling good.

I’m working on stuff of my choosing and I really like it.

I’ve been thinking a lot about my business lately and what the starving crowd and what I want to happen.

I feel like I’ve finally cracked the code a little bit about selling high-ticket clients and expensive products.

So after listening and reading Alex Hormozi for two days here is what I learned:

  1. Charge an obscene amount
  2. Use that amount to create a crazy experience
  3. Solve a really big problem (to create really big value)

I think what really big value I want to create with my coaching is to help people create a masterpiece.

If I was to breakdown Alex Hormozi’s formula for value:

  1. The dream: create an artistic masterpiece – a breakout piece (this will make you a career in this space a breakout piece, you will feel proud of yourself, you will be able to call yourself an artist proudly, this will be the best work you’ve ever created)
  2. The certainty: I am an artist and engineer, I have a lot of experience coaching people through mental blocks, I will give you a guarantee.
  3. The time: 1 year
  4. The effort: without giving up your mental sanity, quitting your job, or disconnecting from family

Value of this offer: 250,000+

10-15%: 25,000 – 37,500

2,083 – 3,125 per month

Three stages:

  1. Explore art
  2. Establish your routine
  3. Create your masterwork

Objections/fears:

  1. I don’t have enough time
  2. I don’t know what I want to do
  3. I have kids
  4. I don’t want to quit my job
  5. I don’t know what other people will like, what if people don’t like it
  6. Too much work
  7. Keep switching what I want to do

UNIT TWO: Processing pain + work (day 2)

Byjack

It’s 1 am in the morning and I feel tired.

When I think about drawing on my drawing tablet I feel overwhelmed high in my chest.

I feel really really scared that everything I do will be frustrating and not good or artistic.

Let me start with some inktober sketches.

What strikes me when I draw is that art for me, even just plain linework, is all about discovery, all about uncovering the truth or the world underneath the scribbles. It doesn’t matter if I don’t see the world at first, it emerges from within the shapes.

I mean this style is definitely me, I guess I worry that if I try to refine it, it will lose the liveliness in here. At the same time, I’m not sure I want the business card to be this messy and a part of my wants it to look more like a tarrot card. I imagined a swashbuckling kid with big aviator goggles and a bunch of dripping paint brushes.

UNIT ONE: Workspace cleanup (day 1)

Byjack
AI GamingArt Coaching
Ideal PlaceQuiet with cool game posters that give me inspirationSomewhere warm and comfy and inviting. Traveling, in the library, Craft, or Sa-Ten
Ideal ToolsMultiple monitors, clear file structure, keyboard, notebookSketchbook, drawing tablet on laptop and phone, clear file structure
Ideal WarmupMinigame, blog post, writing ideas in notebookInktober prompts, art instagram posts, blog post working out some sketch ideas

To-do list

  1. Decide on clear file structure for AI gaming
    • Github
    • Jupyter notebooks
    • Python code
    • Project documents
  2. Designate a coding notebook
  3. Think about alternative coding spots or ways to optimize effectiveness at home
  4. Connect tablet with laptop and phone
  5. Decide a clear structure for both branding sketches and other sketches
  6. Designate sketching notebook

Results

  1. Decided to start with Google Collab and branch out from there
  2. There aren’t any really good coding notebooks, will buy a new one eventually will use bad one for now
  3. Not sure
  4. Done
  5. Done
  6. Done

Workpost 78: Tired

Byjack

Today I’m tired and might be mildly sick. But I’m going to make the most out of it.

Today I would love to create a new landing page concept. It could level up our business by a lot.

For fun, I would like to play Valorant again. It was super fun last night.

I would also like to do some drawing while relaxing outside. That would be really nice.

Finally, I want to do some jiujitsu and maybe take a nap.

It would be nice to make some good money today as well.