Workpost 63: Extreme procrastination

Today I feel tired. My kidneys ache. They feel bloated and stagnated. My stomach feels slow. My head iches on the top. My eyes are dry. I feel burning inflammation up my back and spine. My skin is flaking on my face.

These past few days have felt exhausting, extremely stressful, and demoralizing. Last night, I asked myself the question, how do I get out of this.

I didn’t know the answer then, but my answer today during my walk was to take my stress seriously.

And just now, I had a realization that I have the systems developed to do extraordinary things. I just need to utilize them and follow their principals.

Systems in place:

1. Daily walk to ponder questions I am stressed about
2. Daily workpost to grow myself, plan for greatness
3. Clean space to deal with stress, clean place = clean mind
4. Meal prep strategy for healthy cheap meals with little stress – fridge containers, tacos, lettuce wraps
5. Whiteboards to write strategies
6. Off computer working systems (working while walking, running errands, working out, eating out)
7. Todo list strategy – focus on one thing at a time, prioritize
8. Clean after working hours to transition, decompress
9. Crawling to get cardio in small space
10. Walking backwards and tibialus for knee
11. Hanging for shoulders and posture
12. Working out after and before meals for better absorption, muscle growth, and recovery
13. Journaling to ask myself questions at night
14. Walking with no effort

I have absolutely everything I need to build a life where I can do almost anything I want, achieve anything I want.

Right now, I want to focus on two things: recovery and priming

Priming are stuff like cleaning, wiping off my whiteboards, clearing out tabs, filling markers, mealprep, todo list grooming

Recovery means lots of sleep, rest, hydration, and exercise. Specifically paying attention to anytime I want to game to see if I feel stressed or uncomfortable, taking a break when that happens.

To top off this post, I want to attach something that I want to erase from my whiteboard, but want to save forever:

Reasons Why I’m Ready

• I’ve developed very deep and powerful life theories (flow, connection) → these theories can give anyone direction in darkness, I forget them but they come back when I need them
• When faced with pain I’ve always come out stronger (ACL) → pain is the greatest teacher
• I’ve proven that I can complete hard challenges (knee, sova) → I can achieve the challenges I set my mind to
• I can solve problems few people can solve (triage, nikola) → normal rules don’t apply
• I’m deeply attuned to emotions (coaching, art, philosophy) → makes it much easier to connect with people
• I used to walk up to girls on the street → Nothing is something I can’t handle. There is nothing that I can’t ask for
• No matter how badly I fail there are people who still love me
• The point is not to get there, be productive or succeed, the point is to find a meaningful problem, problems we want to solve → we will never have no problems but we can choose which problems we want to contend with
• Happiness doesn’t come from acing the past but seizing the now → its never too late to be happyIt’s near too late to fix it with a degree in engineering and parents who don’t mess with me
• I have lots of assets and saving and a degree in engineering and parents and a sister all with money saved