I’m really struggling to process some feelings right now.

1. I am working through the stressful emotions that come up when I see an attractive girl
2. I am working through overwhelmed and frustrated emotions with my current project for my AI consulting
3. I am working through fear and stress I feel working on my pipelines
4. I am working through feeling of fear and anxiety around money

Let’s work through them one by one.

Attractive girl

Guilt, shame, deep desire

Center of my chest, painful clenching

Stomach clenching

I am bad

I am defective

I am ugly

I am guilty

I am rejected

I won’t ever find beauty or be happy

What if the perfect one is out there

It’s not about the perfect person who meets all your needs. It’s the relationship that meets all of your needs.

Why do I place all my hopes and dreams on a person? Because I want to be happy and I’ve only felt that in shallow relationships. I like meeting people. I like the feeling of possibility in life of variety.

Can I meet those needs in a relationship? Can I find novelty and excitement in a relationship?

Why is desire such an important need for adventures for me? Just because I’m in a relationship, doesn’t mean I can’t be attractive. But I want to find someone attractive, then for them and me to do the little romantic dance. I worry when I’m in a relationship, that’s not possible anymore.

I think honestly the fear comes from lack of needs being met in the relationship. Specifically around safety, social needs, chemistry, and inspiration. I feel if I felt if I felt safe to talk openly about people that are attractive and my partner is secure enough in herself, I felt my social needs are met, I felt strong chemistry, and inspired I would not find others attractive.

I want to switch my mindset over from comparing and wanting to meet my needs via others, and focus more on the relationship. Looking elsewhere is giving up on the relationship and if I really want to look elsewhere, I want to first end the relationship.

I don’t want to neglect my needs anymore.

I want to first meet my needs myself, then in the relationship:

1. Safety – self acceptance and kindness
2. Social needs – be in touch with moment, who people really are
3. Chemistry – spending more time on self care, self massage
4. Inspiration – reminding myself of the greatness I am capable of, of the change I can create

For the relationship, I want to continue working through needs course.

I feel fear in my chest when I think about my relationship. I feel uncertainty.

No matter what happens I will find peace and happiness because of the way I engage with the world.

My little emotional processing toolkit for meeting my needs:

1. Radical acceptance, hold myself, be curious, somatic
2. Self love, massage
3. Be in the moment, see things how they are

Chemistry

The indescribable feeling

Like the beauty of the red in the roses

Unfurled

Cutting in the corners, filling then in

This feeling of a world around you

That you carry everywhere you go

Our worlds meet

The openness to connect with me

Ok, this raises so many questions it is time to move along

Project Frustration

I feel lost, overwhelmed, and misunderstood.

What if I fail? What if its all for nothing? I don’t know what to do. It feels like so much work.

I don’t know what to do to be effective. I feel the time is running out so fast.

I need to focus on the end goal. Ignore everything else, its just a bonus.

Recently I’ve been feeling immense pressure with the sensation that I’m somehow running out of time.

I feel a lot of frustration and anger in my chest.

I feel like I have no time anymore to work on the projects, and making progress in my own WordPress. I feel burning rage and frustration in my chest and stomach.

It might be the I am out of control wound.

I’m really angry at myself for procrastinating and not being able to get anything done.

Today I did come up with a really cool idea for an AI benchmark for:

1. Creative writing
2. Problem solving
3. Research
4. Contracts

I also feel overwhelmed. I feel like there is so much work to do, I don’t know where to start. I am overwhelmed. I am not able to deal with it.

I have a lot of projects I’m working on and it is scary to feel that I don’t know how to handle that.

I feel pressure because there are all difficult challenges that are important to me.

I failed big at succeeding in them…I’m so proud of myself!

This is a good thing. To fail big is to learn big.

The lessons are slowly being revealed.

The first question is…what did I need when I was in the overwhelmed state?

Well, I needed to feel the feelings, to be ok with just processing first.

After feeling the feelings to the fullest, what I need next is to find the courage in myself to face the challenge. To remember that I’m capable of anything.

And after feeling embracing the challenge, thinking tactically how I want to face it, and specifically, what small steps I want to take.

I want to take everything that I know as a small task and add it to my todolist. We will start there.

My goal today is to find balance, however that looks like…feeling like I can spend time meeting all my needs and progressing at the speed that I want to progress at.

For my AI Consulting, I want to spend some time this morning thinking through it a little more and following some of the steps I took in my project.

For my consulting project, here are the things I want to get done:

1. Draft up all the major pages in the website
2. Create a signup experience
3. Create a plan for all lead magnet ideas

Major pages:

1. What it’s like to work with us
2. What your customers will experience
3. Mission vision and values

I feel like I’m stagnating in all areas of life.

I feel frustration as aching in my chest cavity and stomach.

I am helpless wound coming up. I am overwhelmed. I feel hopeless. I feel undermotivated. I am lost.

I am tired.

I discovered some things yesterday. I realized that I was obsessed about getting the brand and vision correct, but my goals for my consulting project are actually much more simple:

1. Get experience in creating funnels/pipelines that are simple, effective, easy to maintain
2. Make my client’s company cooler and inspire the people within to do more

The brand and vision just serve as a tactical basis for getting the funnel right because having no vision leads to pretty shitty, unclear websites and ads and makes decision making much harder than it needs to be.

Another thing I recognize is that mission, vision, and values are all things that need to evolve and change as what I want becomes clearer and clearer.

Today I want to spend some time solidifying knowledge from my project for my AI consulting business.

I also want to spend some time on my art coaching business. Also, I want to spend some time gaming and working on my project.

I think I will spend 1 hour on each of those things. AI consulting business in the morning, project in the afternoon, art coaching at night.

The reason why is that I’ve been out of balance, spending so much time working late at night. I need a little recharger. I want to work at stage 2 (like 60-70% max workrate).

If I feel 3 hours of work is at the lower end of stage 2, maybe it’s 40%, max workrate is maybe 8 hours. That makes sense, I think 8 hours is pushing it for absolute maximum amount of effective work (you can obviously work ineffectively for longer than that).

But now I think about it, maybe it is less about how many hours I work, but more how intensely I think. I dunno, interesting concept.

Ok so after feeling out of sorts all day, there is feeling I want to process:

Hopelessness and exhaustion. After obsessing about the project for many hours every day, I gave it my all, and all in all I think I failed. I got a few “this is great” “good work” but deep down I don’t feel people were inspired and even if they were, I don’t see a vision anymore. I’m not excited for the vision and I feel extremely tired and burnt out.

I feel sharp pain and burning in my heart and buzzing exhaustion in my head and eyes, and tension in my stomach.

The wounds coming up are: my work is meaningless. Nothing I do has any impact. Everything feels gray and uninteresting.

Feels almost like a stitch in my side but in my heart instead. My eyes feel sore and dry and my mind feels numb. There is a strong feeling of emptiness in my head, almost like meditation but instead of open, I feel drained, empty.

I feel anger in response, frustration burning in my abdomen, hatred for feeling so stuck by people who are not inspired. I feel disconnected. I am alone. I have no meaning.

There is also fear in my heart that nothing will have meaning, even coaching and AI consulting.

I feel really burnt out.

I feel pressure not to get left behind, to face the overwhelming work with little motivation to spare.

Ok, well I felt the feelings for some time. Here is my response:

1. This is good, because it allows you to take a break from work and focus on what you love
2. My client always tells me that having a good vision is not enough…that’s his coping mechanism he learned as a child, it doesn’t mean I have to agree or stop my creative process to prove him wrong
3. My job is to be inspired and spending time on things that inspire me is not a waste of time
4. Maybe it will be a good opportunity to meditate and see what comes up

I feel strongly that my client will not value the work that I did.

I feel that he will say, “yea is this what you’ve been spending all your time on??? This is not what we need”. Then I will feel frustrated because it IS what we need.

I feel unseen, underappreciated, and misunderstood.

I feel uncomfortable in this room with someone else on the phone. I feel watched, judged, and disliked.

I am now realizing this is a time that I can let go of taking responsibility for others emotions. I can have faith in their abilities to process feelings themselves.

I’m feel numb buzzing fear in my heart and stomach. I feel a little trapped in my shoulders from feeling watched.

Maybe this guy is friendly, both of us clearly like to work. We are both trying to get something done. Maybe this is a warm environment after all.

Reframe: I get to work with people near me, I can get a little sense of community without having to talk

I worry about him being uncomfortable walking behind him or listening to his calls.

I feel fear in my stomach and trapped in my shoulders. I feel I am not safe.

Maybe his calls can motivate me to work on my stuff. I feel rejected, pain in my heart, fear of rejection.

Chase rejection, it will set you free.

With the feeling for my client, I feel deep painful fear in my heart and stomach. I feel a fear of rejection again.

Reframe: if I have a fear of being misunderstood, I can take this time to understand myself.

What I do is important because clarity will give a lot of direction and power to everything you do. Noone like to buy a confused product from a confused company with confused founders. Noone is passionate about a product that isn’t clear in its purpose with a company that isn’t clear on it’s purpose.

I want to be excited about this product and company. Excitement and passionate is the lever arm for work.

Inspiration is the lever arm for creativity. Purpose is the lever arm for fulfillment. Branding is the lever arm for product value. Vision is the lever arm for decision making.

I feel overwhelmed and exhausted today. I want to finish a lot of things today but I feel overwhelmed thinking about it. Maybe it’s time to process more fears.

I have to finish my work today.

I feel it in the pit of my stomach, my chest this numbing roaring anxiety but also exhaustion and numbness in my head.

I feel like a failure. I’m panicking about not being able to get work done.

One thing that came up for me is that working really hard can help me sleep. All I need to do is fail at creating a package. All I need to complete the deliverable, it doesn’t matter if I do it in a shitty way.

Tony Robbins said to fall in love with your customer.

I want to see my customer succeed. I want to see them happy and thriving. I can make that happen.

I’m afraid to sleep. I’m afraid the day will pass me by.

Not being able to sleep means there is extra energy I have to use. I can use that energy to help my customer and myself. You don’t need to sleep until you feel that release.

I’m afraid I will play Valorant or do something else to cope. I’m afraid the day will pass me by. I’m afraid my addictions will drain me of energy.

Wanting to play Valorant is a sign for massage and addressing some of the physical issues I am experiencing.

Here are some more ideas furnished by Claude:

I have a business called epiphany AI group. It’s main aim is to take a business that has the potential to move humanity forwards and removes it’s blocks. I want to develop some questions, exercises, and processes that help me get into the right consulting mindset that is in line with my company with the sense of anything is possible, positivity, seeking innovation, and purpose. brainstorm some ideas for me

Thank you for sharing about your business, Epiphany AI Group. It sounds like an innovative approach to consulting with a focus on transformative potential. Here are some ideas for questions, exercises, and processes to help you get into the right consulting mindset aligned with your company’s values:

Questions:

1. What would this business look like if all limitations were removed?
2. How can we reframe perceived obstacles as opportunities?
3. What emerging technologies or trends could revolutionize this industry?
4. If we were to start from scratch today, how would we design this business?
5. What’s the most audacious goal this company could set for itself?

Exercises:

1. Reverse Brainstorming: Identify ways to make the business fail, then reverse these ideas.
2. Future Retrospective: Imagine it’s 5 years from now and the company has achieved incredible success. What steps did we take to get there?
3. Random Word Association: Choose a random word and find ways to connect it to the business, sparking innovative ideas.
4. Mindfulness Meditation: Practice mindfulness to clear your mind before consulting sessions.
5. Empathy Mapping: Create detailed empathy maps for various stakeholders to gain new perspectives.

Processes:

1. “Moonshot Thinking” Sessions: Regular brainstorming focused on game-changing ideas.
2. Innovation Pipeline: Develop a systematic approach to capture, evaluate, and implement new ideas.
3. Cross-Industry Inspiration: Regularly explore innovations in unrelated industries for fresh perspectives.
4. Purposeful Reflection: Schedule time to align business strategies with broader humanitarian goals.
5. Constraint Removal Exercise: Systematically identify and challenge assumed constraints in the business model.

Would you like me to elaborate on any of these ideas or explore a specific area further?

can you explain empathy mapping?

Certainly, I’d be happy to explain empathy mapping.

Empathy mapping is a collaborative visualization tool used to gain a deeper understanding of a stakeholder’s (often a customer’s or user’s) experience. It’s designed to help teams better understand the needs, thoughts, feelings, and motivations of the people they’re designing for or working with. This process encourages teams to consider a person’s complete experience, going beyond just their obvious actions or statements.

A typical empathy map is divided into four quadrants, each representing a different aspect of a person’s experience:

1. Says: What the person says out loud in an interview or during an observed experience.
2. Thinks: What the person might be thinking but not explicitly saying.
3. Does: The actions and behaviors the person takes.
4. Feels: The emotions the person might be feeling.

Additionally, two more sections are often added: 5. Pains: Frustrations, obstacles, or risks the person experiences. 6. Gains: Wants, needs, hopes and dreams of the person.

To create an empathy map:

1. Define the user or stakeholder you’re mapping.
2. Gather data through interviews, observations, or existing research.
3. Fill in each section of the map with relevant insights.
4. Review the map as a team to identify patterns and generate insights.

In the context of your business, Epiphany AI Group, you might use empathy mapping to:

• Understand the mindset of business leaders you’re consulting for.
• Explore the perspectives of various stakeholders within a client’s organization.
• Gain insights into the end-users or customers of your client’s products or services.

By using empathy mapping, you can uncover hidden needs, motivations, and pain points that might not be immediately obvious. This can lead to more innovative and effective solutions, aligning well with your company’s goal of removing blocks and moving humanity forward.

Would you like more information on how to implement empathy mapping in your consulting process?

Some more ideas that I came up with:

What customer do I want to fall in love with
Meditate for the answer
Write a time capsule
Body exercise emotion from motion
I don’t let my mind run me I let my heart and soul run me

I felt that something was missing today. I felt like I has a lot of pieces of the puzzle, but I was missing something from stitching the whole thing together.

I realized that the thing I cannot lose sight of, that will help create boundaries and structure for the project is to remind myself what the deliverables are:

1. Create a working funnel where money goes in -> money comes out
2. Create the “rulebook” that will allow anyone run the funnel
3. Set up the funnel

With that in mind, here is the timeline:

1. Week 1: Create the Future Package
   • Goal: Create a package of branding, website, mission and vision, and other visuals and documents that can bring me and anyone else into the correct future
2. Week 2: Create the Recruitment Package
   • Goal: Create a leads magnet that can get attract a buttload of leads and sell the future
3. Week 3: Create a Conversion Package
   • Goal: Create an offer that will allow us to incorporate our customers into the future
4. Week 4: Execute and innovate
   • Goal: automate, innovate, and make the process more fun, optimized and exciting

Here is what I decided today.

In order to succeed at the project I am currently working on, I need to focus on developing my business, get me into the right headspace of possibility, positivity, fun, innovation, and purpose.

I don’t need to develop anything external (website, logo) but I do need to develop tools and processes to get me into the right headspace.

Here are some original ideas:

1. 7 whys to understand purpose
2. Write a science fiction story of the role of the clients company in the future, write an origin story to the company
3. Try to tell the science fiction with the brand, website, ads
4. Design thinking – how might we solve X problem
5. What does level 3 look like? What does level 1 and 2 look like?
6. What problem are we solving for humanity?
7. What crisis are we pushing the boundaries in?
8. Mindmap – fill the whiteboard
9. What games can we play with our employees?
10. How can we make it fun for our clients?

Here is the main blueprint concept I am working with:

1. Build the future: create home base to live in
   • Brand
   • Mission
   • Vision
   • Website
2. Recruit more people for that future: I need you!
   • Lead magnet
3. Work together for the future: we build it together
   • Offer
4. Make it science fiction: push it past what is now
   • Technology innovation
   • Process innovation

I also figured out why I have troubling making a coaching website and why it felt so wrong. It had pricing and generic things on it.

I want my funnel to be an homage to my mission and vision, which is to foster the creation of more artistic masterpieces. So I want my website to have a feeling of magic, of the way Harry Potter felt when he was got his invitation letter to the Hogwarts school of witchcraft and wizardry. I want to remind myself of the feeling of reading children’s books. I want the website to be an homage to dreams, creating worlds, and fantasy.

I want my business cards to feel like a work of art, like a magical invitation.

Today I accomplished the following things:

1. Bought masterpiececoaching.org
2. Ordered samples of premium business card samples from Jukebox

Tomorrow I really want to design and put together my website asap using a template on wordpress.